Traveling To A Blurred Destiny

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A crossroad? No! I can’t even see a road
It is being in the woods with a blind fold
I’m totally lost, wandering the unknown
Just trusting my senses to lead me to you

And I keep stumbling, falling into the pit
Picking myself up gets harder and harder
But I try to follow the sound of your voice
‎It’s my only guide in this bleak surrounding

As I open my eyes with hope to see clearly
There’s a fog, it’s enveloping the horizon
And all I can do is to pray, to listen
Then continue this journey with only faith…

I’m still stuck somewhere in the woods, in the pit
It’s unlikely I’ll figure my way out soon
But as long as I hear your voice, calling me
I know I’m in the path towards my destiny

– October 2, 2017

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Writing Struggle

It’s not that I don’t have any inspiration
But I am always left with so much distraction
Left and right, up and down, all I see is confusion
Look around and I can’t find my concentration

Maybe I’m stuck with no more creativity
My mind wanders but it’s the same activity
I try to focus but I’m hit with anxiety
‎More of this and it will be my fallibility

And it’s becoming the epitome of puzzles
I try hard but I still don’t know how to tackle
I guess there are some things that I cannot handle
Just have to accept this is an endless struggle

– May 14, 2019

One With The Flowers

A smile with her dimple
Can wash away my trouble
Like poppies that are blooming
A hope that’s everlasting

Her contagious happiness
Reminds me that I am blessed
Like tulips in spring time
A beauty that is sublime

Her pure, genuine laughter
Soothes me, it makes me better
Like the scent of roses
A fragrance of calmness

Her ever glowing light
Changes all wrong to right
A source of life and power
She is one with the flowers

– May 17, 2019

Chasing You

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Hey! Would you please slow down?
I’m tired from running after you
You’re too fast and I’m so slow
Or maybe you could stop?
Wait for an hour or maybe two
So I can keep up with you

I don’t want to be left behind
I want to be on the same pace
Despite moving as fast as I could
Despite planning what to do
I always find myself in a hurry
Hurrying to be with you

But no matter what I try, what I do
You wouldn’t let me catch up
You seem close but you are far
It’s like I am chasing a ghost
Truth is, I am chasing for nothing
Maybe it’s time to stop chasing you

I’m now exhausted but I still can’t stop
I guess I’m just drawn to chasing you…
I’m drawn to chasing time…

– May 8, 2019

Anxious

I live in anxiety
Of the unknown
Of all uncertainties
Of all risks

It is irrational
It is illogical
But I’m a slave
I’m under its spell

I am trapped
It’s controlling me
Fear is taking over
Soon I’ll find my end

Then it will be done
As I succumb to it
And to nothingness
That’s where I’ll be

– May 12, 2019

My Second Chance

Writer’s Note: I wrote this when my baby fell from the bed. Our floor is not carpeted but I put comforter and pillows on it. Thank God she was fine.

It was not real
As I cried and cried
I knew I could never go back
I could never turn back the time
To save you
To protect you

I just let it happened
You fell and I wasn’t there
You were scared
I abandoned you
I betrayed your trust
I failed you

I thank God, Jesus and your angel
For looking after you
For giving us a second chance
I promise to make amends
I promise I’ll be better
I love you so much

Can your forgive me?
Can you take my hand again?
I will do my best to keep you safe
I won’t ever leave
My life, I will offer to you
If only to not lose you

– April 24, 2019

Where Are You?

It gets harder each day
As I try to find my way
I have been everywhere
But I can’t find you there

I’m not myself anymore
There’s a void in my core
I wonder if you’re near
So to erase my fear

Chorus:
Where are you? Where are you?
How can I go back to you?
Where are you? Where are you?
Please tell me what should I do

I miss you terribly
Why did you just leave me?
‎Let’s become one again
Return to love once again

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
Oh… I need to be strong
To you is where I belong
I know we’ll be together
Just have faith in forever
But I’m now losing me
So for now please tell me…

Repeat Chorus

Where are you? Where are you?
Please let’s be me and you…

– April 10, 2019