Author’s Note: Gusto ko sana i-post yung mga sequel ng Taking Uncertainties kaso mawawala yung anonymity kasi masyado specific yung nasulat ko after nun. Hmmm… 3 writings ata yung di ko pwede i-post na related sa Taking Uncertainties. Anyway, etong Questions-Impossibility ay 4th writing na related pa rin sa Taking Uncertainties, at the same time, namention ko rin dito yung tungkol sa paghahanap ng imposibleng bagay. Puro rhetorical questions lang lahat eto, confusion pa rin during this time so here you go…
Happiness is such a very relative term…
What makes a person truly happy?
Is it earning big, traveling to places you’ve never been, living luxuriously?
Or is it having a balanced life? Having little career?
How would you know when it’s time to give up?
How would you know when it’s time to seek for opportunities?
How would you know that you cannot take it anymore?
How would you handle these?
What if you feel like tomorrows will never bring anything?
What if you feel like you’re an outcast?
What if your perspectives aren’t the same as theirs?
What if you don’t have any friends? Can somebody hand me a survival kit?
What really drives you in this kind of mess?
Is it your pride that keeps you holding on?
Or is it the opportunity that you think you’ll have that makes you hoping for?
Or is it the money, your boss, your friends?
Or are you still waiting to make that “difference”?
Still no regrets? This time, it’s so hard to say “definitely yes!”
Am thinking too much, still overanalyzing things…
Am trying too hard to carry on, to live through my decisions
Can’t believe that such quarter life crisis exists
More than 6 months… what else is new? Am still confused, lots of uncertainties, have no directions still.
It seems to me that I cannot control this mess.
Been in a daze, been in a maze
Why am I still searching for the impossibility?!?
– written on June 27, 2008