Author’s Note: Balik ulit sa pag-reminisce ng mga confusion ko. Eto ay nasulat ko 32 hours before lumabas ang exam result ng CFA Level 3 noong 2009. Syempre ang resulta nyan eh bagsak ako.
I hate this feeling! This agony… THIS AGONY OF WAITING!
I wonder where will I be tomorrow?… This sounds familiar! I already said this last year. But it seems that this question has no answers.
It’s this time of the year again when “Go the Distance” is my song! But will I really get there if I make it through? I really do not know but what I do know is I badly want to pass this exam.
It seems that I am not making any sense. Anyhow…
Nervous, anxious, but anticipating
Confused, frightened yet hoping
Keeping myself busy
But I don’t want to feel too easy
I can’t even relax
Just wanting the time to lapse
32 hours still…
Will keep praying until…
Longest hours of my life again
After this what would I gain?
Stressed, pressured but anticipating
Clueless, unsure yet hoping
What to do? What to do? What to do? It’s seems that I’m having a hard time concentrating?
I don’t want to experience failure for the nth time. I don’t have a plan B nor any other plans for this, just plan A… so please, please, please! Allow me to shout “I’M FINALLY FREE!”
– written August 17, 2009