Jigsaw Puzzle

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Author’s Note: I wrote the poem on January 14, 2015 and I already posted it here last month. Since this is my first attempt to write this way in English, I’m so happy with what I’ve accomplished. I’m satisfied and proud with this so I sincerely hope you’ll enjoy. 🙂

 

This is my second 1,000 piece puzzle. May be I was so engrossed by it the first time that I didn’t notice how awesome it is. Little by little, piece by piece; various chocolates and desserts are slowly coming to life. It’s amazing! Now I’m drooling…

Aside from segregating the pieces by color, I first look for the border and corner pieces. This is my starting point before I dig further into the puzzle. It helps me visualize the image. Next, I try to figure out the pieces beside the edges but usually this doesn’t work. Despite the border pieces, it is still vague; I just dive right into it and look for whatever that fits.

Finishing it is not an exact science. It’s wherever it takes me. The border pieces are just there as a guide. Oftentimes, I can’t find any piece that fits. I get stuck so I have to go back and check all the pieces over and over again to look for that important detail. After several minutes and still nothing, I conclude there are missing pieces. It’s frustrating! It’s like searching for a needle in a hay stack. When I reach this point, I relax, step back, then re-examine the pieces. This time, from a different angle. Then I remind myself that it underwent quality control; that there is assurance that the pieces are complete – I have to trust its creator. I just need to keep on looking for that one piece (or may be a couple) and for that special detail that will magically glue them altogether. I will just be surprised my collage is slowly forming variety of desserts. Yet again, I’m drooling…

IMG_20150117_231804It’s unbelievable how those tiny pieces of puzzle tell their own story. Each one is unique and special. Each comes in different shapes – one piece can never be a substitute of the other. Each one is key. Each contributes to be part of the overall picture. All of them are connected. If one is missing, the puzzle can never be whole.

Same as life, isn’t it?

The puzzle pieces are life experiences. The inter-connected life experiences that I fail to recognize. Then, the special details are the lessons. The key lessons that I tend to neglect. They need to be found and understood before everything falls into place.

Like doing the border pieces first, in life, I always try to begin with the end in mind. It helps me create a plan. But usually, I get confused. I get lost. I ignored a blotch of an ink without realizing it is the most critical detail. Same as solving a jigsaw, I need to be patient. I need to be determined. I need to re-focus and look at things differently. Otherwise, I will accomplish nothing. So, while keeping my faith and trust intact, I go with the flow; see where it leads me.

You know what’s the best part in solving a jigsaw puzzle? It is the experience of putting all those pieces together. I appreciate its magnificent beauty more because of the challenge and excitement of finishing it. It could get frustrating. It is time consuming. But that’s the fun part! I just have to enjoy the ride and keep on searching for the magical pieces. The process of discovery is priceless!

Life is a boundless beauty and it’s an exciting journey to get there. Let’s enjoy the ride and grab the opportunity to discover its wonder. Isn’t it amazing that those small jigsaw pieces all fit together in a masterpiece called life?

‎Life is truly a wonder
Amazing, boundless beauty
It’s something to discover
Let’s open our hearts and see

It’s to search for a needle
In a field with stack of hays
It’s a thousand piece puzzle
That will soon fall into place

Each piece is key and special
To form and fit together
Every step is material
It’s a journey to ponder

 

– written on February 6, 2015

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Tonight

Author’s Note: This is another love poem written more than a decade ago when I was 17 (oh my, I feel old). When I was young, I just write without editing so this is long. Anyway, now that I rarely write about love, I hope you’ll enjoy this endangered love poem…

Tonight may be the sweetest night
As I lay awake thinking about the love that we have
All my worries are erased and fears are all burned
‘Coz this night would be the best night of my life

Tonight I dream that you’ll love me too
And to say these words that are only just for you
To be with you and to hold you near
But I guess (that) these are only just a dream

It’s so easy to say that I love you
But I couldn’t admit to myself that I do
‘Coz these pains and hurts are so excruciating
As I lay awake tonight, not knowing if you feel the same way too…

I couldn’t take the risks to say I love you
You might ignore it and your words could be denied
Afraid to be in love with you somehow
‘Coz tonight I realize that I may only mean a best friend for you

Then loving you wouldn’t be that easy
And loving you could bring all these hardships and pains
Still, this heart is searching for a love that’s so fine
Yet tonight I understand that I couldn’t sacrifice friendship
just for the sake of telling what’s true

So tonight, I decide to cover up the sorrows
And tonight I tell my heart to stop
But whatever I say and do
I can’t control my feelings, you see it’s always heart over mind…

This heart is full of pains and heartaches
Tears are still deeply falling from my eyes
As I lay awake thinking about the love that we have
This night turned out to be the loneliest night of my life…

I thought I could still hide all these heartaches and pains
I thought I could still bear all the hurts
But tell me, what must I do?
If tonight until forever on, I’m still in love with you?

And so tonight I vow never to fall in love with you
Tonight I say all my feelings are not true
But when I think about some things
I realize that I keep on falling over and over again for you…

– October 20, 2000