Searching for the Impossibility and Gulo

Reposting… haven’t really find the time to look for new ones but I realized I didn’t put tags in my old posts.


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Author’s Note: Two poems I wrote in the same day, one in English and the other in Filipino. They’re not a translation of each other but both are pertaining to one topic. I wrote this after I failed Level 2 of CFA Exam. During this time, I don’t know if I should still go on or just do other things. This was also during the years when I was so confused and looking for my passion. Here goes… p.s. I posted this in 2013, reposting it to add tags.

Searching for the Impossibility

A depressing thought inside my head
What’s going on? I cannot comprehend
Can’t leave all these things behind
Keep hunting me even when I try to hide

Nowhere to go, what path to take?
Where am I going in this mess?
Nowhere to run, I badly need a break
Cause I’ve been…

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Lurk In Shadows (Part 3)

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Author’s Note: This is part 3 and probably the final part. Perhaps I should continue the story but let’s see if I’ll find some time and inspiration to do so. Here’s part 1 and part 2.

Where no one bothers, I’m at my best at night
It’s when I let go and have a taste of life
It’s the anticipation, hoping for a chance
It’s the dreaming, it’s staring at you from afar

It’s the wait, the excitement to see you in sight
When you’re here at last, it’s that rush to get me high
When you’re nonchalant, unmindful and carefree
To watch your every move, that’s my liberty

Imagine my surprise when I saw you at lunch
I was exposed, my invisibility’s gone
Confused, not sure I’d like us to meet right now
As I’m contented to lurk in shadows for now

– November 10, 2015

Lurk In Shadows (Part 2)

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Author’s Note: Here’s Lurk In Shadows (Part 1).

Quietly minding and eating my lunch
Then a Goddess of Beauty appears! You!
You sit beside me, place your tray then smile
Forced myself to smile lamely back at you

This is the moment, my one and only chance
Building my courage to speak and say hi
I open my mouth but no words come out
Can’t move! I feel my heart is about to blast

Where’s Harry Potter’s cloak when I need one?
Damn! I was caught off guard in broad daylight
Now you’re leaving without even saying bye
Got no choice but to lurk in shadows tonight

– November 9, 2015

Freaking Friday

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Author’s Note: I wrote this on the first Friday the 13th of 2015, that was February, but I forgot to post it here. Got an opportunity to post it today, the 3rd and last Friday the 13th of 2015.

What a freaking Friday
Bus: cancelled; train: delayed
Standing in a freezer
In a very cold weather
Come on! Move! We’re all late
Frozen tracks? Urrrgh, that’s not great!
Toes are numb, I’m shaking
Feels like there’s no heating
It’s almost 10, I just arrived
Lost my routine, it’s a strive
Now, I’m in a crappy mood
It’s ripple effect – not good
So this is officially a bad day
Oh! It’s the 13th today!
But then I rolled up the rim*
Free coffee! So let’s not be dim! 🙂

* Tim Hortons always have that contest/raffle where you roll the rim of the cup and you can win free coffee, food or a car.

– written on February 13, 2015

Lurk In Shadows (Part 1)

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Author’s Note: I’ve been wanting to write a short story but I’m struggling with it so I’ll try this instead. Let’s see if I can make a short story through poetry. I’ll do this in part. I have 3 inspirations for the first part: (1) You by Caroline Kepnes and (2) Dexter by Jeff Lindsay, and the main inspiration is (3) Dark Templar, a unit in Blizzard’s Starcraft video game.

Lurking in shadows, hiding from moonlight
Counting time, observing the passersby
Hoping to have a glance of you tonight
Wondering if you will ever cross my path

Been staring at the horizon, where are you?
Trying to be patient, what must I do?
It’s getting late, I must go now, my love
My effort has failed, this is all non-sense

Morning has come, now I do my routine
But something seems off, it just doesn’t fit
Ignore and carry on; wait for the dusk
Then lurk in shadows in the usual spot.

– November 6, 2015


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Author’s Note: This is inspired by the above pictured book, “You” written by Caroline Kepnes. I used some of the phrases and words from the book so to those who read it, I’m pretty sure you’ll know what those are. I’m glad that the guy in Chapters recommended this book to me. This book is disturbingly good. I’m in the last few chapters of the book and I’m sure I can finish it on my train ride later this afternoon so before I find out the ending, I’m posting this now.

The moment you walked in there I knew
A love that’s true and pure, innocent at first
A mutual instant attraction that can’t be helped
It’s the beginning of me and you – our everythingship

Your eyes speak to me in words I cannot fathom
Yet I know this language – the language of us
Your breath, your scent, they will always linger
You’re in my heart, in my mind. You are my world!

I wake up and close my eyes and it’s you I see
But why suddenly, you walked away from me?
I am lost, I cannot focus, I am about to explode
I love you! Now, look at what you made me do!

The moment I walked in there I already knew
It is you that I want, it is you that I need
You’re different, hot. You’re smarter than anyone
My world is no longer empty – this is our everythingship

You show me reality and define things I never knew existed
This is the attention I’ve always dreamt of and wanted
But I have issues and lies, secrets buried underneath
I need my space. I cannot do this, I have to leave

I wake up and close my eyes and it’s you that I miss
I’m sorting my life. I want you back, let’s start anew
But why do you have this stuff? Who exactly are you?
I cannot believe it! Wow! Now, I see what I made you do!

Look at us – Joe and Beck – we’re together as one
It is destructive. It is deadly yet it is true love!
This is our destiny, can’t you see we’re THE perfect match?
Why don’t we forget about all these? Let’s make this last!

– November 4, 2015

Monday Blues Again

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Author’s Note: I wrote this last week but waited ’til Monday to post it. “Case of the Mondays” came from the film Office Space by Mike Judge, starring Ron Livingston and Jennifer Aniston. Well, last week, I’m having Monday blues again and then I remembered that film and borrowed that epic line! Actually…

I am tired of listening to my whines
I am tired from writing about my cries
I tried hard to conquer Monday blues
Don’t know how to start, effort is no use

I keep telling myself it’s just a phase
I am convincing myself it will pass
I tried so hard to escape from my woes
Yet here I am, writing about my rant

So here it goes…

Monday blues, it’s striking again
It’s dull and I am uninspired
If only I can pull the hours
Fast forward my week to Friday

Zoning out, my sanity’s gone
I am restless and exhausted
Yet the week has barely started
Well, it’s the case of the Mondays!

Blame the dark and gloomy weather
Blame the October fall morning
Blame my dreary and tiresome job
But all blame is actually mine!

– October 27, 2015