Eventually. Maybe.

I tried to reach for the sky
I dreamt big. I aimed high
But it seems it’s not fated
Despite how long I’ve waited

Often times, I lose my will
Then giving up becomes real
It’s frustrating, it’s tiring
But I won’t stop believing

Hoping someday I’ll get there
In a new world that’s better
Then lead to my destiny
Eventually. Maybe.

– June 6, 2017

Eventually. Maybe.

Is this love? Is this true?
I am so smitten by you.
I want us to get closer
Be with you ’til forever

Is this love? This feels bizarre!
Can I just wish on a star?
For you to see the sign
So you can be mine, just mine.

Is this love? Why all the ache?
Do you know what’s at stake
When love is not returned?
Will I then get tired to yearn?

But I’ll always hope and pray
For you to find your way
To love me endlessly
Eventually. Maybe.

– June 6, 2017

Lost Soul

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A lost soul eager to seek happiness
Just floating in the vast wilderness
It’s determined, not wanting to rest
To find joy is the ultimate test

But the lost soul is…

Drifting… wandering… where would it be?
Just hoping… wishing… to finally see
The light which will pave the way for me
Drifting… wandering… let it be free

A creative spirit wanting freedom
Just flowing to only find boredom
Embattled in search for its passion
Beaten, broken, there’s no salvation

Now the spirit is…

Drifting… wandering… where would it be?
Lost in the crowd and not able to see
The glimmer of light is just blinding me
Drifting… wandering… can never be free

– May 3, 2017

Wherever

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I was hoping to bring back my lost fire, my lost drive
But I couldn’t find them in spite of my effort and strive
I thought a new place would be the start of discovery
Unfortunately, some things are not just meant to be

I initially thought it would be my way to freedom
Or maybe it’d be another disguise of a kingdom
A kingdom of a new hell where I would be again sucked
So I guess it was for the best so I will not be stuck

Clearly, a new place is not the answer to my questions
Wherever I go I could not find any solution
Maybe I just need to surrender – let go – let it be
Accept my fate into nothingness, that’s where I will be

– May 9, 2017