Melancholy

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It’s sucking every inch of my strength
It’s draining every bit of my soul
I am very weak, I am weakened
I’m about to surrender my control

It is slowly eating me alive
Burying me deeper to a hole
Where I can never ever emerge
Where I will never again be whole

And I don’t have a way to resist
Let it suck me, drain me, take my all
Let it bring me to where I belong…
This melancholy has become my all

– March 21, 2018

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I Never Imagine

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I never imagine
A bond could be so strong
A love happening in an instant
Just finding out about you
Not even seeing you in person
But just knowing you are here
Breathing, growing with me
You are a miracle, a blessing

I never imagine
That time can actually pause
That Earth can stop from spinning –
That was when we finally saw
A small glimpse of you
Your tiny heart beating fast
The focus was on you
Only you, our little one

I never imagine
I could be this person
A whole new different me –
I must confess, it feels odd
Yet it feels wonderful
Knowing there could be a future
With you, the three of us
Growing together, embracing this life

I never ever imagine
We could bring a new life to this world…

– January 30, 2018

Another Writing Struggle

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I always end up staring blankly at the ceiling
Waiting and looking for a pinch of inspiration
But no matter how hard I try it’s always nothing
I should search deeper to find that certain emotion

Words, thoughts, and ideas – they are scrambling in my head
Flipping in my bed trying to find inner calmness
Yet I still can’t figure out the things I could have said
All I have is my rambling mind with clutter and mess

And so… I just stare again blankly at the ceiling
Now just allowing the words to take me to a trip
Emptying the mind, start from the very beginning
But oh my! This is only making me fall asleep

– March 15, 2018

I Love You, Goodbye

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Writer’s Note: Of course, the title is the same as Celine Dion’s song so just want to give that song a credit.

How do I convey the things that I want to say?
What more should I do to convince you to please stay?
I wish I could wipe the tears rolling in your eyes
If only I could stop all your whimpers and cries

Is this the end of the seven years – the end of us?
Can’t we have another chance? Let’s talk, let’s discuss
Is it that easy to throw everything all away?
Please forgive me, I didn’t mean to go astray

“It was you who had thrown everything all away
You forgot about us and let lust lead your way
I can’t forget it no matter how much I try
I hate to say it – I love you but this is goodbye”

– March 28, 2018

Waiting

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My friend, you have
Been counting the clock’s minutes
Frustrated, getting restless
Patience is stretched to its limits
Uneasy, feeling reckless

Well, will you please stop worrying
Just welcome the world of waiting

It’s going to take a while
Take a deep breath, take a seat
It’s going to be a mile
Just relax, don’t sweat it

My friend, you have
Been staring at your email
Hoping you’ll see an answer
You’re setting yourself to fail
Just say a little prayer

Come on, just please stop worrying
Say hi to the world of waiting

It’s going to take a while
Take a deep breath, take a seat
It’s going to be a mile
Just relax, don’t sweat it

Oh yeah, it’s gonna be a while
So just relax, just chill, just smile
Yeah, just relax, just chill, just smile

– September 19, 2017