I Love…

I love smelling your hair, it smells like baby powder
I love kissing your forehead, pinching your nose
I love wiping your tears whenever you cry
I love seeing your toothless grin, your cute little smile
It always melts my heart, I forget that I’m tired

I love holding your hands, rubbing your belly
Whenever you push and try to do number two
It seems that I’m helping you but it’s all on you
I love changing your diapers, wiping your butt
I even made a song, please remeber that

I love writing you poems and songs to sing for you
I love teaching you 123s and ABCs
I love playing with you, reading you books
I love the way you listen to all stories I tell
You seem to understand all things that I say

I love the way you sneeze, you cough, and you yawn
And how you fart like you are a big human being
I love tickling you and massaging your legs
I love your scared look whenever we bathe you
Then how happy you are whenever we dress you

I love how you hate burping when you’re still hungry
I love how drunk you are after each feeding
I love how you can sleep soundly on my chest
I love watching you sleep and dream at night
And when you have nightmares, I love soothing your cries

I love how you stretch your short little arms
Then you make these grunts like you have a hard life
I even love your tantrums like you’ve been neglected
Then how you talk to us as if you know all the words
And how you tell your dadsi about your day

I love seeing you grow, becoming a lady
I love waiting for the day you’ll take your first step
I love that God gave you to us and touch our lives
I love you, I love everything about you
But if there’s one thing I don’t love…
It’s I don’t love missing you

– October 19, 2018

I Wish I Could

I wish I could always make you smile
But all I could do is to wipe your tears
Each time you cry or are hurting
And know I’m here to understand

I wish I could take away your pain
But all I could do is to stay with you,
To hug you and hold you tight
And know you won’t suffer alone

I wish I could carry your burden
But all I could do is to be your rock,
To be there when you make your move
And know I’m here to watch over you

There are many things I wish I could
But I could never take your place
But just know until my very end,
I am always here to hold your hand

– January 4, 2019

Living In Shadow

lurk in shadows

photo credit to empowertexans.com

I have been living in the shadow of my pen
I want to be out but I just do not know when
I guess I am afraid, I don’t want to let go
I’m holding on to something I don’t even know

My fear is holding me back, I am insecure
I want to explore the what-ifs but I’m unsure
Maybe I will just live in the world of regret
Wait for the time that I’ll be able to forget

Maybe here, I’ll find freedom and serenity
Maybe this place has always been my destiny
Stop wondering what kind of life would be then
Just accept living in the shadow of my pen

– January 7, 2019

The Story Of 2018

Writer’s Note: I’ve been writing about my year since 2013 but I’m not sure when I would be able to write a full narrative about my 2018. For now, here’s a short poem summarizing it.

Welcomed the birth of our baby
Looked forward to this journey
Felt a resurgence of passion
Found a new inspiration
This is my 2018 (twenty eighteen)
Bring it on, 2019 (twenty nineteen)

To explore the world with you
To write more about Him and you
To walk the path to destiny
To continue to be free
Here’s to more love, 2019
And thank you, 2018

– January 2, 2019