One More Time / Muli

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photo credit to kasadawai. blogspot.com

Writer’s Note: This was originally written in Filipino (the one below) and the one in English was the translation.

I knew you and I are not meant to last long
But I took the chance for to you I belong
Now, all I have are your memories that linger
Hopefully they’ll be with me until forever

Yet I’m still clueless, I don’t know what to do
For I cannot bear this pain of losing you
Our hopes, our dreams, they are all fading away
If only I had found a way to make you stay

Tell me how can I bring back the yesterday
Let me bring back what God had taken away
For I want to be with you for one more time
I need to kiss you again for one last time

Sa simula alam ko nang hindi tayo magtatagal
Ngunit pinili kita dahil ako’y sayo, aking mahal
Ngayon ang alaala mo lang ang aking hinahawakan
Sana’y kapiling ko ang mga ito hanggang katapusan

Ngunit ako’y naguguluhan, hindi alam ang gagawin
Dahil ang sakit ng iyong paglisan di ko kayang dalhin
Ang ating mga pangarap ay unti unting naglalaho
Kung alam ko lang ang paraan na ika’y hindi lumayo

Paano maibabalik ang lumipas na kahapon?
Paano ibabalik ang kinuha na ng Panginoon?
Kung maaari lang, nais kitang muling makasama
Kung maaari lang, sana’y mahagkan muli kita

– December 22, 2017

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The Devil’s Voice

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photo credit to youtube.com (this is probably a screenshot of a demo song)

I hear the devil’s voice
Whispering closely to my ear
Telling me things
That something bad will happen
I’m hopeless, helpless
And all I can do is cry

I hear the devil’s voice
Telling me truths about life
Uncovering all secrets
Showing me the path, the way
I’m amused, amazed
And all I can do is to listen

I hear the devil’s voice
Calling my name
Commanding me to end it all
“It will set you free, find peace,”‎
I struggle, it’s hard to resist
‎Oh God, freedom is so tempting!

I hear the devil’s voice
It’s screaming, shouting at me
Then a light so bright appears
Shattering everything – all is lie
But I can hardly see, it’s a blur
As I break down, I’m on my knees

Oh God, help me please…

– February 27, 2018

My Diversion

It was sucking the joy out of me
I struggled to keep my sanity
Then you came and brought a new meaning
Now I look forward to each morning

It’s amazing how you made me see
A world beyond each day’s cruelty
A diversion that I badly need
To survive this life that I lead

Yes, it still sucks the joy out of me
But as long as you’re here, I’m with glee
With you, I’m ready to brave this fight
Together, we’ll overcome this plight

– September 13, 2017

Winter 2018

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Writer’s Note: So this was last week but the cold continues… It just never stops!

Braving yet another cold day
How can this shiver go away
I wish I could be at home, stay
Hibernate ’til spring makes its way

I’ll never get used to this weather
Leave me alone with my comforter
Cold, get lost! Give me some breather
Spring, rescue me from this winter

This has been brutal, it’s endless
The ice and the chill are limitless
It’s tiring, it’s giving me stress
Sun, show your warmth, stop this madness

– February 2, 2018

Lost

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photo credit to kathleenmoulton.com

It’s a world that I thought is better
Hoping it’s where I’ll discover
Myself, my dream, and my mission
Yet somehow I lose my passion

Then to darkness I surrender
Now I have a lot to ponder

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

It is the path of destruction
And all I have are vague questions
This madness, how long can I bear?
Only you can save me from despair

Then to nothingness I concede
I know I can never be freed

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

Oh I… I’m lost in this journey
Please lead me to something that’s real…

– September 11, 2017

Writing Struggle

a combination of two photos obtained from: glogster.com and fountainpennetwork.com

I haven’t been writing lately
I can’t find the words, honestly
My mind is lost, seems uninspired
Creativity doesn’t transpire

So where do I start, be on track?
No, I cannot rely on luck
I tell myself words will soon come
But all I am is just a scum

I want to write again, seriously
I need my rhythm back, badly
Mind, please return from the abyss
Madness is here, help me end this

– December 4, 2017

My Agony

I live in struggle with my agony
My mind is screaming, asking for relief
Let me free, save me from my misery
Take me to a place where there is no grief

When I found hope to end my frustration
It was taken and I was left alone
With my own thoughts leading to destruction
Now I’m more trapped in this sickening zone

Now I’m defeated by my agony
I gave up, I surrendered to my mess
My mind fought but it’s my reality
To rock bottom – it’s where I will regress

– October 16, 2017