Please!

It’ playing in my head
Over and over
I’m walking in a path
Of my own destruction

I am getting insane
It’s a mental struggle
I am in agony
Suffering with no end

It’s in infinite loop
Please! Just stop already!
My mind is exploding
When will this torture end?

– October 2, 2017

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Lost Traveller

lost traveller

photo credit to thelosttraveller.com

The mind wanders into an endless road
With a burden it’s trying to unload
Then look for passion to bring back the fire
So as to follow the heart’s only desire

The mind’s travel starts in a paradise
With all hopes, without the uncovered lies
But the path widens into an abyss
The mind then panics, it struggles to find peace

The mind can’t escape, there’s nowhere to hide
The only way out is to enjoy this ride
So it drifts – like freely flows with the sea
As the mind’s a floater, lost in this journey

– August 18, 2017

In Isolation

meditation

photo credit to meditationretreat.org

When the world’s noises are getting louder
It’s deafening and I feel sick – weaker
To be in a crowd is my constant struggle
I can’t breathe and my life seems in a muddle

So leave me alone with my thoughts, my peace
I don’t need anybody else to please
Just bring back my oxygen, let me be
It’s the only way to keep my sanity

I block the noise – all that’s unnecessary
Then welcome silence in solitary
For I find solace in isolation
My happiness is in this seclusion

– July 31, 2017

Drift Away

let me fly

photo credit to princess-airis.blogspot.com

I am swept… being blown away
In life that I’m living each day
Carry me or give me some wings
Let me fly and see what it brings

But I’m falling… falling into deep
I thought I was ready for the leap
So rescue me, now; save me please
Wrap me with Your warmth; feel Your breeze

Then I’m drifting… drifting in space
Yet this is… it’s my happy place
So let me… let me be with wind
Set me free, let me be careened

– August 14, 2017

My World

kinder than solitude

photo credit to goodreads.com

Writer’s Note: This is inspired by one of the characters in this book, Kinder than Solitude, written by Yiyun Li.

People create their own world
To get by
It’s make believe
But there’s solemnity
Where peace is found
It’s to carry on
In every life’s turn
Then reach pure joy
So as to face tomorrows

I’m no different, you know?
It becomes my life
But sometimes,
That world can be scary
What if I get trapped?
What if I can no longer know
The reality
How do you draw the line
And keep your sanity?

Somehow, I manage to survive
This battle of the brain –
Imagined versus real
Fiction versus fact
Never ever underestimate
The mind
It can be confused, yes
It can be distracted, too
But it never falters

I create my own world, you see
It’s my only escape
But it’s my paradise
It’s kinder than solitude

– July 19, 2017

Angel Of Death

angel of death

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Listen, I hear a flapping sound
No, I am not imagining
It’s distant yet it’s from beyond
Clearly, it’s a flutter of wings

Flap! Flap! It’s louder and louder
I think it’s coming to get me
You hear it? It’s getting closer
I must hide – where’s the place to be?

Running now – faster and faster
But the sound is now deafening
Slowly changing into laughter
So I stop then find it’s smiling

What’s this creature? It’s enchanting
I’m paralyzed by its wide grin
It’s approaching, spreading its wings
Clutching me as I return its grin

– June 20, 2017

Darkness And Light

It is getting darker and darker
Soon, I’ll be blinded by the night
How will I look and see beyond
When the sun is disappearing?
My other senses are alerted
But they have no awareness

It’s pitch black now and I’m scared
Where am I? Why am I left here?
I grab onto something – it’s cold
A metal hand rail for support
I wonder if it’s strong enough
To carry my weight, my cross

The hand rail is leading me
Going nowhere, descending
My world suddenly crumbles
A blurred vision is then shown
My past, my life up to now
Playing in an infinite loop

It’s never ending, I want out
The rail will also soon collapse
I start to sink, struggling in vain
Something below is tugging me
I’m helpless, ready to give in
Then a strong hand reaches to me

It lifts me up, it rescues me
A ray of light is now at sight
Then a face is slowly forming
Now, it’s the only thing I see
It glows, His smile is glowing
It shines, He’s shining upon me

– June 8, 2017