Another Writing Struggle

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I always end up staring blankly at the ceiling
Waiting and looking for a pinch of inspiration
But no matter how hard I try it’s always nothing
I should search deeper to find that certain emotion

Words, thoughts, and ideas – they are scrambling in my head
Flipping in my bed trying to find inner calmness
Yet I still can’t figure out the things I could have said
All I have is my rambling mind with clutter and mess

And so… I just stare again blankly at the ceiling
Now just allowing the words to take me to a trip
Emptying the mind, start from the very beginning
But oh my! This is only making me fall asleep

– March 15, 2018

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Waiting

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My friend, you have
Been counting the clock’s minutes
Frustrated, getting restless
Patience is stretched to its limits
Uneasy, feeling reckless

Well, will you please stop worrying
Just welcome the world of waiting

It’s going to take a while
Take a deep breath, take a seat
It’s going to be a mile
Just relax, don’t sweat it

My friend, you have
Been staring at your email
Hoping you’ll see an answer
You’re setting yourself to fail
Just say a little prayer

Come on, just please stop worrying
Say hi to the world of waiting

It’s going to take a while
Take a deep breath, take a seat
It’s going to be a mile
Just relax, don’t sweat it

Oh yeah, it’s gonna be a while
So just relax, just chill, just smile
Yeah, just relax, just chill, just smile

– September 19, 2017

The Woods

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No water was left to bring life to this place
I found myself drifting, lost again in space
So I floated, left my past without a trace…

I walked in the woods, following a path
To a river full of fury and wrath
But I was shocked to see, I couldn’t believe
The river had drained, no fish could ever live

But I continued the journey, wandering
Searching for a paradise while humming
A sad melody with no tune, no hue
Then I was lost in the woods without a clue

So I walked back to the path of the river
Tracking my steps before headed to nowhere
But it seemed I was just going deeper
Into the woods where I was lost forever

– January 9, 2018

Lost

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It’s a world that I thought is better
Hoping it’s where I’ll discover
Myself, my dream, and my mission
Yet somehow I lose my passion

Then to darkness I surrender
Now I have a lot to ponder

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

It is the path of destruction
And all I have are vague questions
This madness, how long can I bear?
Only you can save me from despair

Then to nothingness I concede
I know I can never be freed

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

Oh I… I’m lost in this journey
Please lead me to something that’s real…

– September 11, 2017

My Agony

I live in struggle with my agony
My mind is screaming, asking for relief
Let me free, save me from my misery
Take me to a place where there is no grief

When I found hope to end my frustration
It was taken and I was left alone
With my own thoughts leading to destruction
Now I’m more trapped in this sickening zone

Now I’m defeated by my agony
I gave up, I surrendered to my mess
My mind fought but it’s my reality
To rock bottom – it’s where I will regress

– October 16, 2017

Patiently Waiting

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Patiently waiting for the sunrise
Without worries, without the heart’s cries
Let light shine, let it open the eyes
To believe in hope that never dies

Patiently waiting for the morning
With a smile for a new beginning
Let love be the only vital thing
To find happiness with no ending

Patiently waiting for tomorrow
With a bright future with no sorrow
Let all hate be gone, let passion grow
To live free and not go with the flow

– October 11, 2017

Relive The Past?

 

Do you want to relive the past?
The pain, the sorrow?
Go back to the memory
When all you heard was the sound –
The sound of your cries
Coming from your heart
Screaming for guidance, for help
When you resisted, struggled
Yet you were still defeated

Do you want to relive this past?
The confusion, the frustrations?
The time you hit rock bottom
But then an epiphany emerged
Which led to true passion
Where you found purpose, yourself
Then you picked up the broken pieces
Mended your wounded heart
Then approached life with new perspective

Do I want to relive my past?
To be taken back in time
And be reminded about trials –
The failures turning into triumphs
The challenges making living worthwhile
So as to harden my mind, my heart
To believe again in destiny
To again hope for darkness and light
That they will converge becoming as one…

Should I relive my past?…

– September 28, 2017