My World

kinder than solitude

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Writer’s Note: This is inspired by one of the characters in this book, Kinder than Solitude, written by Yiyun Li.

People create their own world
To get by
It’s make believe
But there’s solemnity
Where peace is found
It’s to carry on
In every life’s turn
Then reach pure joy
So as to face tomorrows

I’m no different, you know?
It becomes my life
But sometimes,
That world can be scary
What if I get trapped?
What if I can no longer know
The reality
How do you draw the line
And keep your sanity?

Somehow, I manage to survive
This battle of the brain –
Imagined versus real
Fiction versus fact
Never ever underestimate
The mind
It can be confused, yes
It can be distracted, too
But it never falters

I create my own world, you see
It’s my only escape
But it’s my paradise
It’s kinder than solitude

– July 19, 2017

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Heartbroken Once

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Punch me and I will feel nothing
I won’t bruise and I won’t get hurt
Stare all you want, I won’t get burned
I won’t feel ashamed, I won’t care

I was broken once now I’m ready
I’m hard as steel, I am now strong
Call me heartless, maybe stoic
But I am here to brave the storm

So you’re asking for forgiveness now
Telling me how much you love me
Begging me to stay, never leave
Oh well, don’t you think it’s too late?

– July 20, 2017

Answer The Call

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phone

I can feel I. It’s calling my name
It’s whispering gently and softly
I can hear its voice, loud and clear –
“Come, take the plunge.
This is what you need.”

It’s tempting me but I am so lame
Its only desire is to see me free
But here I am, overwhelmed with fear –
So I won’t budge.
I won’t pursue the lead.

– April 10, 2017

Angel Of Death

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Listen, I hear a flapping sound
No, I am not imagining
It’s distant yet it’s from beyond
Clearly, it’s a flutter of wings

Flap! Flap! It’s louder and louder
I think it’s coming to get me
You hear it? It’s getting closer
I must hide – where’s the place to be?

Running now – faster and faster
But the sound is now deafening
Slowly changing into laughter
So I stop then find it’s smiling

What’s this creature? It’s enchanting
I’m paralyzed by its wide grin
It’s approaching, spreading its wings
Clutching me as I return its grin

– June 20, 2017

Darkness And Light

It is getting darker and darker
Soon, I’ll be blinded by the night
How will I look and see beyond
When the sun is disappearing?
My other senses are alerted
But they have no awareness

It’s pitch black now and I’m scared
Where am I? Why am I left here?
I grab onto something – it’s cold
A metal hand rail for support
I wonder if it’s strong enough
To carry my weight, my cross

The hand rail is leading me
Going nowhere, descending
My world suddenly crumbles
A blurred vision is then shown
My past, my life up to now
Playing in an infinite loop

It’s never ending, I want out
The rail will also soon collapse
I start to sink, struggling in vain
Something below is tugging me
I’m helpless, ready to give in
Then a strong hand reaches to me

It lifts me up, it rescues me
A ray of light is now at sight
Then a face is slowly forming
Now, it’s the only thing I see
It glows, His smile is glowing
It shines, He’s shining upon me

– June 8, 2017

Bewildered Mind / Magulong Isipan

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Author’s Note: I wrote the Filipino version first then translated it to English.

My absolutely bewildered mind
Is simply wandering everywhere
Without any hint of destination
Just circling without any vision

Travelled towards the north and the east
Hoping to have a gaze at the sun
But not even a trace of ray was seen
And the light leading the way was dim

Then walked towards the south and the west
Hoping for answers to be unveiled
Instead, only more questions were found
So in the dark, that’s where it landed

My absolutely bewildered mind
Just desiring for a destination
But it’s running in an endless road
Continuing its journey to unknown

Filipino Version:

Ang sadyang magulo kong isipan
Na naglalakbay kung saan-saan
Ngunit wala naming patutunguhan
Umiikot ng walang kabuluhan

Bumayba sa hilaga’t silangan
Umasang ang araw ay masilayan
Ngunit hindi man lang nasinagan
Ng liwanag na sana ay daan

Nilakad ang timog at kanluran
Upang maghanap ng kasagutan
Ngunit mga tanong ang natagpuan
Kaya’t sa dilim ang naging hantungan

Ang sadyang magulo kong isipan
Ang tanging hangad ay patutunguhan
Tumatakbo ng walang katapusan
Patuloy ang lakbay sa kawalan

– April 25, 2017

Chess

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Author’s Note: I have two versions of this writing – the other one was already posted here.

Minutes are passing
It’s your turn, what now?
Show me so I would know
Which pawn should I use
Will I take the bait?
Or will it be a check?
Now it’s a check
Protect the king
Hide behind the rook
It’s the queen’s move
But a knight’s mistake
Bishop’s avenging
But there’s nowhere to go
Is it checkmate? The end?
I failed and lost
I struggled in this battle
This battle of waiting

– September 20, 2016