Almost. Not Quite.

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I woke up with a mission for victory
In my head, this was my destiny
The crowd’s joyful faces were riveting
Their loud cheers marked the beginning

My fight for the crown had finally started
3, 2, 1… Stop feeling disconcerted
This was it, I need to hold on tight
I must survive though it didn’t feel right

I fought each battle, did everything I could
I hoped for championship but I was fooled
It was my fault to hope in hindsight
It is always just almost but not quite

– May 31, 2017

Eventually. Maybe.

I tried to reach for the sky
I dreamt big. I aimed high
But it seems it’s not fated
Despite how long I’ve waited

Often times, I lose my will
Then giving up becomes real
It’s frustrating, it’s tiring
But I won’t stop believing

Hoping someday I’ll get there
In a new world that’s better
Then lead to my destiny
Eventually. Maybe.

– June 6, 2017

Eventually. Maybe.

Is this love? Is this true?
I am so smitten by you.
I want us to get closer
Be with you ’til forever

Is this love? This feels bizarre!
Can I just wish on a star?
For you to see the sign
So you can be mine, just mine.

Is this love? Why all the ache?
Do you know what’s at stake
When love is not returned?
Will I then get tired to yearn?

But I’ll always hope and pray
For you to find your way
To love me endlessly
Eventually. Maybe.

– June 6, 2017

Lost Soul

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A lost soul eager to seek happiness
Just floating in the vast wilderness
It’s determined, not wanting to rest
To find joy is the ultimate test

But the lost soul is…

Drifting… wandering… where would it be?
Just hoping… wishing… to finally see
The light which will pave the way for me
Drifting… wandering… let it be free

A creative spirit wanting freedom
Just flowing to only find boredom
Embattled in search for its passion
Beaten, broken, there’s no salvation

Now the spirit is…

Drifting… wandering… where would it be?
Lost in the crowd and not able to see
The glimmer of light is just blinding me
Drifting… wandering… can never be free

– May 3, 2017

Wherever

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I was hoping to bring back my lost fire, my lost drive
But I couldn’t find them in spite of my effort and strive
I thought a new place would be the start of discovery
Unfortunately, some things are not just meant to be

I initially thought it would be my way to freedom
Or maybe it’d be another disguise of a kingdom
A kingdom of a new hell where I would be again sucked
So I guess it was for the best so I will not be stuck

Clearly, a new place is not the answer to my questions
Wherever I go I could not find any solution
Maybe I just need to surrender – let go – let it be
Accept my fate into nothingness, that’s where I will be

– May 9, 2017

Hey There

mirror

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Hey there,
Yeah you, I meant you,
The one behind the tree trunk
Shying yourself to the world
Why are you hiding?
To whom are you hiding?
Can you come around?
Can you talk to me, please?

Hey there,
Did you know
That I’ve been looking for you?
Been searching everywhere?
So imagine my surprise
When I found you there
Just within my territory
And not feeling your presence

Did you also know
You’re a key piece to my life
You give me direction
An inspiration to my bleak days
I know what happened
I understand why you turned away
I only want us to be whole again
Can you at least face me, please?

Hey there,
Still scared to show yourself?
You know, I will never get tired
Of telling you how much you mean
Of proving you my sincerity
I will just stay here, waiting
Until you’re ready, have courage
I’m only afraid time will soon run out…

Hey there,
Yeah you, the one in the mirror
I just hope you’re listening…

– May 10, 2017

Immersion

Author’s Note: Just lyrics, without melody.

I see you as a figment in my dream
An apparition of what it may seem
A part of me is just imagining
A life with you could be the perfect thing

Refrain:
But I’m crippled with just a thought of you
Yet I’d do anything to be with you

Chorus:
I want to see through you
Let every inch of you be magnified
I want to get through you
Let’s be one and our souls be unified
I want to see through you
Yes, I want to be immersed with you…

Somehow my vision of you seems so clear
With you, I am abandoning my fear
This emotion, it’s new yet it’s surreal
Maybe I am now ready to be real

Repeat Refrain and Chorus

Bridge:
Why don’t we stop this pretention
Now it’s time to take some action
Let’s converge, it’s our immersion

Repeat Chorus

Yes, I want to be immersed with you
Together, we’ll forever be one…

– January 25, 2017