Anxious

I live in anxiety
Of the unknown
Of all uncertainties
Of all risks

It is irrational
It is illogical
But I’m a slave
I’m under its spell

I am trapped
It’s controlling me
Fear is taking over
Soon I’ll find my end

Then it will be done
As I succumb to it
And to nothingness
That’s where I’ll be

– May 12, 2019

The Wait

It feels like forever
How much longer?
I’m feeling restless
This wait is endless

I wish I have a clue
So I’d know what to do
At stake is my future
This wait is a torture

The hours are passing
So what’s in the offing?
Be patient, don’t worry
But this wait is killing me

– September 16, 2016