Letter To A First Crush


photo credit to sharpenet.com

My heart skips a beat with only a glance from you
My heart melts when I see you smile out of the blue
I’m giddy, excited but don’t know what to do
This is for the love that lifts my spirit anew

Each time you speak, your eyes are filled with so much glee
Your passion for life is extraordinary
I’m admiring from a distance contentedly
This is for my crush, a love that’s inspiring me

So thank you for showing me how to be in love
I know it’s one way but it’s a gift from above
For to see you feels like I can fly like a dove
This is for my first brush of a romantic love

– September 18, 2017

When Can I See You Smile?

photo credit to eil.com

photo credit to eil.com

Author’s Note: The poem title and the lines are different from the song but somehow when I wrote this I can’t help but think and/or sing the song “When I See You Smile” by Bad English, hence the picture.

Sadness in your eyes I see
You seem bothered somehow
Not sure what you really feel
When can I see you smile?

Mystery – that’s what it is
Seems so obscure – an anonymity
Dark clouds surround you
Why are you so blue?

Are you in pain or may be hurting?
Are you in sorrow or may be suffering?
Every time I have a glance
Thought a smile from you is never a chance

I wonder if I can ever see you laugh
I wonder why you seem so sad
Why can’t you be happy even just for a while?
When can I see you smile?

– February 7, 2007

Dream (Cold Dark Night)

photo obtained from: https://www.flickr.com/photos/107745485@N05/10814232105 (posted by userid nicole6hall in flickr.com

photo obtained from: https://www.flickr.com/photos/107745485@N05/10814232105 (posted by userid nicole6hall in flickr.com

Authors’ Notes:
1. I originally wrote this ages ago – during my teen years – for my crush. 😉 Teenage crush, what a nostalgic feeling!
2. I’ve been wanting to rewrite/edit my past writings so here’s what I’ve (re)written on my way to work this morning. The original is also posted here. I still want to keep the original words/phrases as much as possible to stay true to my emotions and state at the time of writing. I also want to change the title to “Cold Dark Night”, so I just put it in ().

Every time I pause and close my eyes
It’s you I see even in the dark
You’re standing there, beneath the moonlight
You’re waiting for something, may be someone
I could almost feel your heart’s beating fast
Oh, did you just feel that cool breeze blow by?
For at last I see you smiling tonight

Even if this night is cold and dark
You bring warmth and light to the spot
Then, I hear your voice, soft gentle whispers –
Whispers that are loud and clear to my heart
And now we’re getting closer and closer
I could almost touch you but suddenly you’re gone
Then it just hit me! These are not real
All these are only in my sleep…


Every time I pause and close my eyes
I always see you even in the dark
You’re standing there, waiting for someone to come
I see you underneath the moonlight,
I could almost feel your heart’s beating so fast
You could almost feel the cool breeze blowing by
At last, I see you smiling in the dark

Even if it is cold and dark,
You still brighten up the spot.
There, I hear your whispers,
Loud and clear to my heart
It seems like we are getting even closer,
But you go away and leave me behind
Cause I know, these things aren’t real,
These things are only in my sleep…

– originally written on September 21, 1998

Why Do I Love Him?

Author’s Note: I wrote the first three stanzas of this poem almost two decades ago, 1997. I was 13-14 yrs old experiencing my first brush of romance. Two years later, my friend asked me to continue the poem and so I wrote the next stanzas when I was 16. I no longer write about love so I’m feeling nostalgic reading this. I think it’s still an enjoyable read, I want to edit it before posting but it will no longer be as authentic. I’m putting “()” for the original words that I did minor edits. Just remember, this was written by a teenager. 😉

From the first time I saw him
His tantalizing eyes were looking at me
And from that day on
My heart trembles (starts to tremble) every time I see him

I never knew that crazy feeling
Was started from there
I really can’t explain
These feelings I have

From the moment we talked
From the time I glanced at his face
I never really know
Why do I love him?

I made this poem just for him
But I don’t even know the reason for this
Maybe someday I will see
That this love is for real

Then I’ve told myself forget
But (this heart of mine) my heart can’t make the bet
Now I am (my heart) full of regrets
Still searching for the reasons why we two met?

Can’t explain these feelings
Can’t find those keys
Maybe he’s just too good to be true
But he’s the one who makes me feel blue

Maybe I love him
Maybe I like him
But you know – still searching for the answers
Why do I love him?

– written on:
First 3 stanzas: September 9, 1997
Next stanzas: November 19, 1999