The dawn breaks
The shield surrounding
The silence of my mind
It is slowly cracking
Silence is breaking free
It is rattling
A pain that is unnerving
It is discomforting
As I hear its whispers
As I hear its shrieks
It is echoing in my head
Over and over –
The silence is shouting
A scream of trouble
A deafening sound
It is about to explode
Ready to devour
The world full of noise
Resistance no more
The mind in full surrender
As the silence finally breaks…
Gone are my worries
Gone is my sanity
Just a peaceful accord
Between the mind
And the quietness
Uniting as one –
One mind, one body
One soul, one heart
At last, this is bliss
The bliss of silence
Then, I embrace the light…
Author’s Note: This is an excerpt from my last night’s long and vivid dream.
Today, I woke up from a dream –
Many were trapped in a huge mansion
Running from infected, looking for a way out
Then you were kidnapped.
People ran from one room to another.
People hid while figuring an escape route.
Until I finally found you
In a forest-like room, you were standing
You were full of life,
You were happy and free.
You asked, “How’s life? Any kids yet?”
I said, “None, of course but everything’s fine.’
Then I told you, “Let’s keep moving.
The infected are coming.”
“I’m tired from running, let me stay here.”
Unsure if I would agree but time is passing
I know I can’t force you to so I just said:
“Can I at least embrace you for one last time?”
As I was spreading my arms to hug you tight
You were slowly vanishing –
But the last thing that disappeared
Was the smile stuck in your lips…
Today, I woke up from a dream
Where I saw you happy and free.
It’s almost four years since you left
And I am still missing your presence
Your love and greatness I will never forget
And I will always remember that smile –
Your smile which was stuck in your lips
As I was embracing you last night.
I miss you. I love you, Mommy.