Defeated

I fell and I stumbled
I was down, I was troubled
I can’t pick myself up
There was no way to get up
No strength to even try
And all I could do was cry
From despair, from anger
For not having the power
To control my dumb mind
Then command the brain to find
The love and the passion
To seek a motivation
But I only faltered
To defeat, I surrendered

– July 10, 2019

Almost. Not Quite.

photo credit to techzulu.com

I woke up with a mission for victory
In my head, this was my destiny
The crowd’s joyful faces were riveting
Their loud cheers marked the beginning

My fight for the crown had finally started
3, 2, 1… Stop feeling disconcerted
This was it, I need to hold on tight
I must survive though it didn’t feel right

I fought each battle, did everything I could
I hoped for championship but I was fooled
It was my fault to hope in hindsight
It is always just almost but not quite

– May 31, 2017