Insatiable

An unsatisfying hunger
A thirst for blood
The sight of the first drop
Then the world just stops

I long for the meat
I lust for the flesh
It’s mind boggling
It’s uncontrollable

Eat and be filled
Drink and be pleased
Give in to the urge
Yet it’s insatiable

It wants more
It needs more
More flesh…
More blood…

Until there’s nothing left
Nothing more to bleed…

– December 11, 2017

Thoughts These Days

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Writer’s Note: I’m posting 2 today just to tell WordPress I’m still alive! I actually want to write something about holidays or the new year but I couldn’t find the time to write about it yet so anyway, I’m posting my thoughts these past days. This is related to my struggle with changes.

To myself:
Six days without caffeine yet I’m surviving
I’m coping with the changes but I’m struggling
I feel worse each day yet I am delighted
And I never thought I would be this excited

To my spouse:
These are all new to me so please bear with me
I will be moody, I will be more whiny
But I’ll be less frustrated in each work day
With this new purpose, I’ll have no more dismay (read: work dismay, who cares about work now? ;P)

To our little one:
Just hang on tight, be well, grow strong and healthy
‘Til you’re ready for the world, see its beauty
You’re a divine gift, a wonderful blessing
For your arrival, we’ll be gladly waiting

– December 5, 2017

Struggling With Changes

Writer’s Note: I haven’t posted since last week! Not that I’m not writing, it’s because I’m struggling and overwhelmed with changes. What a timing to get a new job! if I had known I would go through these physical changes, including changes to priorities next year, I definitely would not move to a new job/company. Anyways, I’m welcoming these change despite my struggle with them. Here goes…

I used to enjoy watching people pass by
Observing them, wondering what their thoughts were
Now I feel dizzy with every move they make
This is one of the changes I’ll have to embrace

I used to like the aroma of coffee
It’s awakening, it’s stimulating
Now I feel awful with just a thought of it
It is another change that I’m struggling with

I used to work out until I lose my breath
It was to compensate for all the junk I ate
Now I have to eat right, don’t over exercise
I wonder when my routine can adjust

Changes, changes, oh why so many changes?
It’s tough but I’m looking forward to more changes
I maybe giving up some things I enjoy
But the one I’ll gain is someone who means so much more

– December 5, 2017