My Diversion

It was sucking the joy out of me
I struggled to keep my sanity
Then you came and brought a new meaning
Now I look forward to each morning

It’s amazing how you made me see
A world beyond each day’s cruelty
A diversion that I badly need
To survive this life that I lead

Yes, it still sucks the joy out of me
But as long as you’re here, I’m with glee
With you, I’m ready to brave this fight
Together, we’ll overcome this plight

– September 13, 2017

Please!

It’ playing in my head
Over and over
I’m walking in a path
Of my own destruction

I am getting insane
It’s a mental struggle
I am in agony
Suffering with no end

It’s in infinite loop
Please! Just stop already!
My mind is exploding
When will this torture end?

– October 2, 2017

Roundabout

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It is a roundabout and I can’t find my exit
It is unsetting, I wonder if I’m losing it
I just drive in circles until my gas is emptied
Or until my mind to eventually see a lead

My path is clearly blocked by this insanity
And vision is blurred towards the road to destiny
It is puzzling and my engine is slowly dying
But I will keep driving even if I’m just circling

THIS is my roundabout and I can’t find THE exit
I’m getting restless, soon, I might be losing it
I still drive in loops hoping my tank is refilled
For I need to stay here until THE way is revealed

– March 14, 2017

My Fear

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Author’s Note: This is about being unsure and feeling that my creativity will soon reach its limits. It is also about falling off the wagon, about going back to the old ways, and about being confused again.

Are you afraid to wake up one morning when you could no longer draw any inspirations?
Wherever you look, wherever you search, everything is distraction
Then the words are gone, they could no longer be heard, written nor spoken
You don’t know what but something is obviously broken

You lie in bed, stare at the clock, watch the hours slowly pass by
A battle in your head, you can’t control it and all you could do is cry
You are back to square one where everything is confusion
You try to escape but your resistance pulls you more in that direction

Are you afraid to only see blur and your mind is blind folded?
It’s a chaos but it’s reality and sadly, this is where you are headed
You flip around, you try not to think but clearly, you are losing it
No matter how hard you try, it’s a vicious loop and there is no exit

You world is crumbling, it’s insanity, you asked, “Is it the end?”
There is no way out, it’s a free fall and all you could do is just to descend…
Are you afraid to wake up one morning realizing you no longer have inspirations?
And welcome you back to the world where everything is question and confusion?

Are you afraid?

I am.

– January 15, 2016