Wherever

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I was hoping to bring back my lost fire, my lost drive
But I couldn’t find them in spite of my effort and strive
I thought a new place would be the start of discovery
Unfortunately, some things are not just meant to be

I initially thought it would be my way to freedom
Or maybe it’d be another disguise of a kingdom
A kingdom of a new hell where I would be again sucked
So I guess it was for the best so I will not be stuck

Clearly, a new place is not the answer to my questions
Wherever I go I could not find any solution
Maybe I just need to surrender – let go – let it be
Accept my fate into nothingness, that’s where I will be

– May 9, 2017

New Norm

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I am feeling a bit off, a little strange
I am nervous of this coming change
It seems odd, I’m having cold feet maybe?
Or I’m no longer used to being busy?

It’s my choice, why do I worry?
I have to trust that it won’t go awry
This is what I want, this is what I need
I know I have to follow this lead

Still, it is a bit weird, different
I have to flow and go with this current
Hope to not be stuck again in a mess
I need to have faith in this newness

– October 3, 2016

I Want Out

Author’s Note: I couldn’t find a suitable picture for this post. I wrote this last year when I was already burnt out and was about to quit my job.

‎I can’t wait to leave this nightmare
I want to rebel! I don’t care
I cannot wait any longer
When will this finally be over?

Hey, I didn’t sign up for this
I am not expecting this
Looks like I overstayed
Now things aren’t going my way

This is an endless frustration
Please! Control this explosion!
That light – I no longer see
I want out, this isn’t for me

– October 22, 2014