Away From You

It feels weird that you’re not here beside
I’m adapting but I miss you terribly
I miss your warmth, hugging me tenderly
Being away from you is killing me

As time goes by it will be easier
But I’m afraid you would not remember
The past year that we spent together
Just you and me creating forever

Please be safe and happy, that’s what I pray
Then I’ll be fine, I’ll make it through the day
If there’s a miracle to find the way
I still wish to be with you or make you stay

– July 30, 2019

This Moment

This is the moment I dreaded
This is the hardest thing ever
And I ask where are we headed
Despite knowing it’s for the better

I want this day to never end
Freeze time when I’m holding you tight
Have an eternity to spend
But we must say goodbye tonight

I know we both need this to grow
If only I could stay, be with you
But it’s now time to let you go
Yet I’m just here, still loving you

– July 29, 2019

Letter To A Lost Love

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You stole my time by thinking of you
I was a mess, didn’t know what to do
You followed me, haunted me like a ghost
This is for the love that I had once lost

Then with all the tears I became stronger
You made me realize I have such power
You showed me the rainbow after the rain
This is for the lost love that gave me pain

So thank you, love, for all the heart ache
It was worth it, it was all for my sake
You set me free; myself, I’ve come to know
This is for the love that I’m now letting go

– July 21, 2017

I Can’t Stop

bleeding heart

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You exude passion, you bring a certain warmth
The way you look at me just drives me crazy
Your free spirit inspires me to be better, too
So I allowed myself to be in love with you

Then you’ve found love, sadly, it’s not in my arms
I used to wish to be him so I’d be the one
But I see you’re happy and that’s all I’ve asked
And I’ve accepted – you and I are not fated

Now I try to look forward to each tomorrow
As I am moving on, I am letting go
But no matter what I do I still can’t stop
Oh I just can’t stop falling more in love with you

– August 25, 2017

It’s All Over… (Part II)

Author’s Note: I wrote this when I was 16 for my first love (more of infatuation). It’s a long poem so I’ll cut this into 3 parts.

Here’s part 1 and here’s part 3.

Now birds are weeping that things won’t be all right
The bees stop in creating sounds
The grasses are drying and turning brown
‘Cause now it’s like the end of my life

Now roses are all dying and the sun is frowning
The tress are becoming gloomy; their branches are not waving
The sea is ignoring me; its waves are hurting me
They are hurting me so badly

I can’t hear the air that is whispering love
Even the sand is not sparkling now
River is filled of rocks, stopping its flow
For now I hate to see thee as a glow

The clouds are covering the moon so it doesn’t shine
The stars are mourning and saying they are sorry
The warm night is now reminding me
How can I get over with thee…

– March 29, 2000

It’s All Over… (Part I)

Author’s Note: I wrote this when I was 16 for my first love (more of infatuation). It’s a long poem so I’ll cut this into 3 parts.

Here’s part 2 and here’s part 3.

Birds sung in a wonderful hymn
The bees played with their buzzing sounds
The green grasses danced and bowed
When thee became a part of my life

Roses bloomed, the sun said hi
The trees’ leaves swayed; their branches waved
The sea greeted me; its waves touched me
They touched me so softly and gently

The air whispered things like forever
The sand sparkled like a golden fire
The river flowed like an endless ray
For I am bounded by the nature of thee

The moon smiled when I looked at it
The stars blinked and told me it’s real
The warm night reminded me
How wonderful it was to be with thee…

But the clouds became grey
Then thunders roared like a frightening mourn
The sun hid; the cloud started to cry
And the nature I saw is now a nightmare of sigh…

– March 29, 2000

Memories Of You

Author’s Note: Another poem that is intended to be a song but its melody is still missing.

In a ski trip, we first met
You were laughing with friends
Enjoying your hot chocolate
Warming up for your next trail

We were side by side lining up
We chatted, I was mesmerized
We exchanged numbers, it was the start
Our story had just begun

And I cling to this day we met…

Chorus:
The snowflake in your nose
The way you close your eyes
Then you smile at me
These all remain in me
My memories of you

We always went back to that trip
It became our celebration
Our tradition until the end
Full of love and happiness

But then, the cold dawned on us
The death of us had been destined
With no choice, you had to leave
Your parting bore questions and pain

And I can only cling to the day we met…

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
Why do I have to let you go
Why do I have to move on
I only want to remember
And just cling to that first day
‘Cause those are all I have
My memories of you

Repeat Chorus

– February 26, 2016