Letter To The Extension Of My Soul

Since you’ve come, my world has found a different meaning
A beautiful, amazing new life is unfolding
It’s divine! The epitome of inspiration
This is for the love that defies all my confusion

Every time you smile or laugh, you melt my heart and all
Then the time I heard you cry, my tears can’t stop to fall
So I promise to take care of you ’til you say never
This is for the love I vow to be with forever

So thank you, baby, you are a gift, a rare blessing
You are the only one who fills my every longing
I am now complete. With you, I am finally whole
This is for the love that’s an extension of my soul

– August 19, 2017

I Love…

I love smelling your hair, it smells like baby powder
I love kissing your forehead, pinching your nose
I love wiping your tears whenever you cry
I love seeing your toothless grin, your cute little smile
It always melts my heart, I forget that I’m tired

I love holding your hands, rubbing your belly
Whenever you push and try to do number two
It seems that I’m helping you but it’s all on you
I love changing your diapers, wiping your butt
I even made a song, please remeber that

I love writing you poems and songs to sing for you
I love teaching you 123s and ABCs
I love playing with you, reading you books
I love the way you listen to all stories I tell
You seem to understand all things that I say

I love the way you sneeze, you cough, and you yawn
And how you fart like you are a big human being
I love tickling you and massaging your legs
I love your scared look whenever we bathe you
Then how happy you are whenever we dress you

I love how you hate burping when you’re still hungry
I love how drunk you are after each feeding
I love how you can sleep soundly on my chest
I love watching you sleep and dream at night
And when you have nightmares, I love soothing your cries

I love how you stretch your short little arms
Then you make these grunts like you have a hard life
I even love your tantrums like you’ve been neglected
Then how you talk to us as if you know all the words
And how you tell your dadsi about your day

I love seeing you grow, becoming a lady
I love waiting for the day you’ll take your first step
I love that God gave you to us and touch our lives
I love you, I love everything about you
But if there’s one thing I don’t love…
It’s I don’t love missing you

– October 19, 2018

Are You All Right There?

You’re so needy, clingy, tell me what you want to do
You cannot speak yet and I can’t understand your cues
I hope there’s a way to learn what you’re trying to say
But all I need to know is you are doing okay

So please give me your real smile, a smile that’s not just gas
Let me hear your coos to know your worries have passed
Then show me your dimples and your little smiling eyes
Just give me something, anything, aside from your cries

You’re so needy. clingy, I just don’t know what to do
Please stop wailing; I’m here now, I won’t ever leave you
And I’ll take care of you, love you until forever
Little one, please be all right, hope you’re all right there

– September 25, 2018

One Summer

Writer’s Note: This is the hospital where I gave birth one summer day/night.

The excitement is all around
I hear joyful music and sound
‎Somebody is arriving
In this fine summer morning

But seems we’re waiting in vain
Anticipation’s a pain
Is she really coming soon?
In this summer afternoon?

‎It gets harder by the second
It seems I’m dying, I reckon
No more strength but keep pushing
It’s been a long summer evening

Now exhaustion is all around
When will a miracle be found?
Then she finally shines her light
In this beautiful summer night

– August 28, 2018

Can I Hold You?

baby in arms

photo credit to christianwomenonline.net

If I can, I will protect you from all harm
I will keep you close and safe here in my arms
So each time you cry which I cannot dismiss
I look at you and I know I cannot resist
I cannot help but to hold you forever
Hoping to take away your fears or whatever
So sleep soundly in my chest, little one
Hear the music of my heart, little one
Let it be your warmth, your peace, your harmony
Let me enjoy this moment that you still need me

– August 10, 2018

You

You steal all my time
You conquer my mind
You seem like trouble
You are a hard job

You’re like my shadow
I can’t leave you behind
Now it’s hard to move
As you’re always around

You had me cornered
You changed me just like that
Now my hands are tied
There’s no going back

But it’s ironic
As you are my bliss
You remove my doubts
With you, there is peace

You shine a new light
You are inspiration
You are my heart and soul
You are my life

– August 10, 2018

37+ Weeks

Belly’s so heavy and it’s still growing
Joint pains in hands and feet; they’re swollen
And I’m itchy all over, can’t sleep
Tossing and turning is not helping
“Mind over matter” – also not working
Then I need to pee for the nth time
Now I am fully awake, annoyed

Then I think about you, our little one
I feel your kicks, your stretches inside
Your ways to tell me you’re safe and sound
All nuisances are suddenly gone
My annoyance turns into a smile
Now I have strength for pain and discomfort
As I dream about us three, I’ll be fine

– July 10, 2018