Melancholy

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It’s sucking every inch of my strength
It’s draining every bit of my soul
I am very weak, I am weakened
I’m about to surrender my control

It is slowly eating me alive
Burying me deeper to a hole
Where I can never ever emerge
Where I will never again be whole

And I don’t have a way to resist
Let it suck me, drain me, take my all
Let it bring me to where I belong…
This melancholy has become my all

– March 21, 2018

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The Woods

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No water was left to bring life to this place
I found myself drifting, lost again in space
So I floated, left my past without a trace…

I walked in the woods, following a path
To a river full of fury and wrath
But I was shocked to see, I couldn’t believe
The river had drained, no fish could ever live

But I continued the journey, wandering
Searching for a paradise while humming
A sad melody with no tune, no hue
Then I was lost in the woods without a clue

So I walked back to the path of the river
Tracking my steps before headed to nowhere
But it seemed I was just going deeper
Into the woods where I was lost forever

– January 9, 2018

Lost

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It’s a world that I thought is better
Hoping it’s where I’ll discover
Myself, my dream, and my mission
Yet somehow I lose my passion

Then to darkness I surrender
Now I have a lot to ponder

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

It is the path of destruction
And all I have are vague questions
This madness, how long can I bear?
Only you can save me from despair

Then to nothingness I concede
I know I can never be freed

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

Oh I… I’m lost in this journey
Please lead me to something that’s real…

– September 11, 2017

Lost Traveller

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The mind wanders into an endless road
With a burden it’s trying to unload
Then look for passion to bring back the fire
So as to follow the heart’s only desire

The mind’s travel starts in a paradise
With all hopes, without the uncovered lies
But the path widens into an abyss
The mind then panics, it struggles to find peace

The mind can’t escape, there’s nowhere to hide
The only way out is to enjoy this ride
So it drifts – like freely flows with the sea
As the mind’s a floater, lost in this journey

– August 18, 2017

Bewildered Mind / Magulong Isipan

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Author’s Note: I wrote the Filipino version first then translated it to English.

My absolutely bewildered mind
Is simply wandering everywhere
Without any hint of destination
Just circling without any vision

Travelled towards the north and the east
Hoping to have a gaze at the sun
But not even a trace of ray was seen
And the light leading the way was dim

Then walked towards the south and the west
Hoping for answers to be unveiled
Instead, only more questions were found
So in the dark, that’s where it landed

My absolutely bewildered mind
Just desiring for a destination
But it’s running in an endless road
Continuing its journey to unknown

Filipino Version:

Ang sadyang magulo kong isipan
Na naglalakbay kung saan-saan
Ngunit wala naming patutunguhan
Umiikot ng walang kabuluhan

Bumayba sa hilaga’t silangan
Umasang ang araw ay masilayan
Ngunit hindi man lang nasinagan
Ng liwanag na sana ay daan

Nilakad ang timog at kanluran
Upang maghanap ng kasagutan
Ngunit mga tanong ang natagpuan
Kaya’t sa dilim ang naging hantungan

Ang sadyang magulo kong isipan
Ang tanging hangad ay patutunguhan
Tumatakbo ng walang katapusan
Patuloy ang lakbay sa kawalan

– April 25, 2017

I Will Find My Passion Again

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I used to have drive and now I have none
I have no inspirations, my fire is gone
Can’t you see this is what boredom has done!
Now I’m back to chaos, back to square one

So I went to the pit and endured the pain
Just to look for passion and be whole again
I searched everywhere but all was in vain
Now I’m lost, defeated and mentally drained

So back to drawing board, figure this out
I need to find you no matter which route
I refuse to fail but I should have no doubt
It’s the start; it’s what passion is all about

– August 31, 2016

Without You

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Abandoned, now my life’s a mess
You left and everything has changed
Now I’m facing another test
And without you this seems so strange

Chorus 1:
And I… I feel so lost, confused
Without you, I’m wounded with bruise
And I… I am sinking below
In a vacuum where I belong

Abandoned, I don’t have a clue
I’m tired from trying to move on
My wings are clipped without you
How do I fly and carry on

Repeat Chorus 1

Bridge:
So save me from my misery
Lift me from this melancholy
Only you can bring clarity
Without you, it’s insanity

Chorus 2:
And I… I feel so lost, confused
Without you, I’m lifeless; no fuse
And I… I am falling… Falling
In this void where I’m submitting

And I… I am falling, sinking below
In this vacuum where I truly belong

– August 30, 2016