Drowning

It’s seems like eternity
But at last,
I see something
It’s blurry…
Is it the shore?
Swim faster
Faster!
Go to that island!
But wait…
Where am I?

The water isn’t blue
It’s gray
There are no fish
No corals
Nothing underneath
A sink hole to nowhere
So hurry
Swim harder!
Flap those arms!
Move those feet!

The shore
It’s nearer
I see it now
I can reach it now
But what? How?
This is not a sanctuary
It’s just a huge log
But I can hold on to it
Cling on to it
At least for now

Then I look up
At the sky
It’s getting darker
This water beyond me
It’s turning black
And I’m exhausted
But I need to stay afloat
“Don’t close your eyes
Don’t give up now”
Just keep swimming!

But I’m tired and I…
I want to rest and I…
I’m shutting my eyes and I…
I’m losing my breath and I…
I don’t know where I am
How did I end up here?
Swim!
Swim more!
But slowly‎…
Oh so slowly…

I am drowning…

Only you can save me…

– August 8, 2019

Where Are You?

It gets harder each day
As I try to find my way
I have been everywhere
But I can’t find you there

I’m not myself anymore
There’s a void in my core
I wonder if you’re near
So to erase my fear

Chorus:
Where are you? Where are you?
How can I go back to you?
Where are you? Where are you?
Please tell me what should I do

I miss you terribly
Why did you just leave me?
‎Let’s become one again
Return to love once again

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
Oh… I need to be strong
To you is where I belong
I know we’ll be together
Just have faith in forever
But I’m now losing me
So for now please tell me…

Repeat Chorus

Where are you? Where are you?
Please let’s be me and you…

– April 10, 2019

Why Do You Write / Bakit Ka Nagsusulat?

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Why do you write?
Is it for the likes
To earn money
Is it just a hobby
Or just because

What if the end is near?
Ideas are running out
There are no more words
The fire is dying down
What’s left is only residue

Can you still write?
Even without an audience
Are you changing your ways to conform
Or would you just let it go
Then accept the faded dream

So why am I still writing?
Because this is why I’m breathing
Until the last drop of my ink
Even if there’s no one who reads
Because writing is my happiness

– February 13, 2019

Bakit ka nagsusulat?
Para ba sa likes
Para ba kumita
Libangan kaya
O dahil wala lang

Eh paano kung hanggang dun na lang?
Naubos na ang mga ideya
Wala ng mga salita
Upos na ang kandila
Latak na lang ang asa utak

Kakayanin mo pa bang magsulat?
Kahit wala namang nagbabasa
Babaguhin mo ba ang likha para sa iba
O hahayaan na lang maiga
At tanggapin ang paglaho ng pangarap

Eh bakit pa rin ako nagsusulat?
Dahil dito ako humihinga
Pipigain hanggang sa huling tinta
Kahit pa walang mambabasa
Dahil pagsusulat ng aking ligaya

– February 13, 2019

Melancholy

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It’s sucking every inch of my strength
It’s draining every bit of my soul
I am very weak, I am weakened
I’m about to surrender my control

It is slowly eating me alive
Burying me deeper to a hole
Where I can never ever emerge
Where I will never again be whole

And I don’t have a way to resist
Let it suck me, drain me, take my all
Let it bring me to where I belong…
This melancholy has become my all

– March 21, 2018

The Woods

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No water was left to bring life to this place
I found myself drifting, lost again in space
So I floated, left my past without a trace…

I walked in the woods, following a path
To a river full of fury and wrath
But I was shocked to see, I couldn’t believe
The river had drained, no fish could ever live

But I continued the journey, wandering
Searching for a paradise while humming
A sad melody with no tune, no hue
Then I was lost in the woods without a clue

So I walked back to the path of the river
Tracking my steps before headed to nowhere
But it seemed I was just going deeper
Into the woods where I was lost forever

– January 9, 2018

Lost

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It’s a world that I thought is better
Hoping it’s where I’ll discover
Myself, my dream, and my mission
Yet somehow I lose my passion

Then to darkness I surrender
Now I have a lot to ponder

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

It is the path of destruction
And all I have are vague questions
This madness, how long can I bear?
Only you can save me from despair

Then to nothingness I concede
I know I can never be freed

Since I… I’m lost in this journey
I’m confused, I’m losing my will
And I… I am going crazy
Please show me the way to what’s real

Oh I… I’m lost in this journey
Please lead me to something that’s real…

– September 11, 2017

Lost Traveller

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The mind wanders into an endless road
With a burden it’s trying to unload
Then look for passion to bring back the fire
So as to follow the heart’s only desire

The mind’s travel starts in a paradise
With all hopes, without the uncovered lies
But the path widens into an abyss
The mind then panics, it struggles to find peace

The mind can’t escape, there’s nowhere to hide
The only way out is to enjoy this ride
So it drifts – like freely flows with the sea
As the mind’s a floater, lost in this journey

– August 18, 2017