Away From You

It feels weird that you’re not here beside
I’m adapting but I miss you terribly
I miss your warmth, hugging me tenderly
Being away from you is killing me

As time goes by it will be easier
But I’m afraid you would not remember
The past year that we spent together
Just you and me creating forever

Please be safe and happy, that’s what I pray
Then I’ll be fine, I’ll make it through the day
If there’s a miracle to find the way
I still wish to be with you or make you stay

– July 30, 2019

This Moment

This is the moment I dreaded
This is the hardest thing ever
And I ask where are we headed
Despite knowing it’s for the better

I want this day to never end
Freeze time when I’m holding you tight
Have an eternity to spend
But we must say goodbye tonight

I know we both need this to grow
If only I could stay, be with you
But it’s now time to let you go
Yet I’m just here, still loving you

– July 29, 2019

Letter To A Lost Love

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You stole my time by thinking of you
I was a mess, didn’t know what to do
You followed me, haunted me like a ghost
This is for the love that I had once lost

Then with all the tears I became stronger
You made me realize I have such power
You showed me the rainbow after the rain
This is for the lost love that gave me pain

So thank you, love, for all the heart ache
It was worth it, it was all for my sake
You set me free; myself, I’ve come to know
This is for the love that I’m now letting go

– July 21, 2017

I Can’t Stop

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You exude passion, you bring a certain warmth
The way you look at me just drives me crazy
Your free spirit inspires me to be better, too
So I allowed myself to be in love with you

Then you’ve found love, sadly, it’s not in my arms
I used to wish to be him so I’d be the one
But I see you’re happy and that’s all I’ve asked
And I’ve accepted – you and I are not fated

Now I try to look forward to each tomorrow
As I am moving on, I am letting go
But no matter what I do I still can’t stop
Oh I just can’t stop falling more in love with you

– August 25, 2017

Heartbroken Once

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Punch me and I will feel nothing
I won’t bruise and I won’t get hurt
Stare all you want, I won’t get burned
I won’t feel ashamed, I won’t care

I was broken once now I’m ready
I’m hard as steel, I am now strong
Call me heartless, maybe stoic
But I am here to brave the storm

So you’re asking for forgiveness now
Telling me how much you love me
Begging me to stay, never leave
Oh well, don’t you think it’s too late?

– July 20, 2017

Holiday Blues

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It’s 4PM and it’s already dark
The wind chill is piercing and I wish –
I’m at home in front of the fireplace
Enjoying its warmth and its heat
Then watch the snowfall by the window
With you by my side, admiring its beauty
Instead, here I am outside, wandering
Going nowhere, cold, lost and searching
Looking for nothing, for love, for you
Somehow, I always end up in this park
Right on this bench where we used to hang…
—–
It’s this time of year when pain is too much
It’s reminiscent of the past, that night –
We were at this bench, giggling nonsensically
We enjoyed the cold and nothing mattered
Then you popped the question but then…
Glimpses of lies start rushing through my mind
I wish I knew what went wrong to undo it
How can I move on and see things differently
I only wish these days, the holidays, to quickly pass
So I can stop counting each snowflake
Right on this bench where we used to hang…

– December 20, 2016

Thunderstorm

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I woke up from the roar of a thunder
Then I listened to the pouring rain
I checked if you were awake
Then it hit me – you already left
You were no longer here
The tears just rolled
I wiped it off then I felt alone.
Soon, I decided to get up
Then I looked over the window
The street was wet and muddy
The garden was bleak
Petals were blown
It was a gloomy Saturday morn.
So I ate breakfast to cheer myself up
I tried to ignore the storm
Until I saw the empty chair
And I can’t help but be glum
As the rain fell,
And so were my tears
But I fought hard to be back at my feet
I tried to move on, to start anew
I acted as if all was all right
But I was helpless –
I was just feeling more low…

The thunderstorm outside was deafening
And all I heard were the roars of thunders
And the sounds of the pouring rain…

– May 24, 2016

Memories Of You

Author’s Note: Another poem that is intended to be a song but its melody is still missing.

In a ski trip, we first met
You were laughing with friends
Enjoying your hot chocolate
Warming up for your next trail

We were side by side lining up
We chatted, I was mesmerized
We exchanged numbers, it was the start
Our story had just begun

And I cling to this day we met…

Chorus:
The snowflake in your nose
The way you close your eyes
Then you smile at me
These all remain in me
My memories of you

We always went back to that trip
It became our celebration
Our tradition until the end
Full of love and happiness

But then, the cold dawned on us
The death of us had been destined
With no choice, you had to leave
Your parting bore questions and pain

And I can only cling to the day we met…

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
Why do I have to let you go
Why do I have to move on
I only want to remember
And just cling to that first day
‘Cause those are all I have
My memories of you

Repeat Chorus

– February 26, 2016

This Is It

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Author’s Note: Here’s another poem I wrote about a year ago. I wrote this on my way to work on the day that I told my boss that I will resign. I was emotionally attached to my previous job so when I decided to leave, I was torn and unsure if my decision was right. This poem was to convince myself that “This Is It! It’s time to move on!”.

Trying to hold back tears
It’s a sign of strength, don’t hide
This is what I prayed, this is the plan
Just keep on swimming, I’ll get by

Trying not to melt down
Have courage, have no regrets
This is my light, this is my new start
Just carry on, leave the past behind

Trying not to be emotional
I can do this, there’s no turning back
This is what I need, this is it!
Just go on, I’m on the right track

– November 5, 2014