Nothing To Say (Part 2)

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I have nothing to say
I can’t figure out a way
Please help me understand
How do I take command
When words are slipping away
How do I make them stay

Soon, they will disappear
What’s left is my renewed fear
Tell me this will be solved
Only a phase to evolve
But with a blurred vision
I’ll live without a mission

I am hitting a wall
Exhaustion is in control
I wish to be inspired
But the mind is blank, it’s tired
Slowly, they will be gone
Maybe this is it… I’m done!

– November 29, 2019

Nothing To Say (Part 1)

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A blurred vision
A faded passion
Lost and confused
But I refuse
To give up and quit
And face defeat

With a faint dream
An absence of gleam
Everything’s bleak
I feel so weak
And there’s no more word
Please help me, Lord

– November 27, 2019

Letter To A First Crush

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My heart skips a beat with only a glance from you
My heart melts when I see you smile out of the blue
I’m giddy, excited but don’t know what to do
This is for the love that lifts my spirit anew

Each time you speak, your eyes are filled with so much glee
Your passion for life is extraordinary
I’m admiring from a distance contentedly
This is for my crush, a love that’s inspiring me

So thank you for showing me how to be in love
I know it’s one way but it’s a gift from above
For to see you feels like I can fly like a dove
This is for my first brush of a romantic love

– September 18, 2017

Letter To A Friend

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I’m here to listen to your woes each time you cry
You tell me you love him, that I cannot deny
But he doesn’t see your worth as much as I do
This is for the love, unrequited yet it’s true

You know, it’s hard to pretend, for me to carry on
When I’m only a friend, a shoulder to lean on
But no matter what, I’ll never ever leave you
This is for the love that is always here for you

Still, I thank you, love, for the gift of your friendship
‎Seeing you happy with him takes away my hardship
Yet somehow, I hope for a future of me and you
This is for the love, hoping someday you’ll feel it, too

– January 30, 2018

I Can No Longer Write

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I can no longer write about your smile
And share your happiness with everyone
I feel this will go on and on for a while
Maybe this is the end and soon I’m done

I can no longer write about my thoughts
And express the ideas in my head
Whatever this is, I battled and I fought
But this fiend owned me, had me defeated

I can no longer write about anything
And play with words to build a masterpiece
It’s slowly consuming my everything
But a least leave hope so I can be at peace

– November 12, 2019

Grief

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A mist is enveloping this morning
The road seems narrow and never ending
I feel the breeze, the chill is hitting my face
How I long for the warmth of your embrace

The sun is still in hiding, it’s so dark
Not even a bit of light can make its mark
But this path I have no choice but to take
Burdened with grief that I can no longer fake

The starless, pitch black night is approaching
And I don’t even know where I’m going
But I will keep walking to find answers
Brave this journey while saying my prayers

– October 11, 2019

I Will Miss You

I will miss the way you smile at me
When you wake up and you find me
Then I will miss preparing your milk
Then washing your skin that feels like silk
I will miss our daily morning strolls
When you nap and I ‘catch them all’
I will miss having lunch with you
And the cute ways you give your cue
Asking for more food or water
Then pout lips, throw tantrums whenever
I will miss washing your hands, your face
Then pick you up, lock you in embrace
I will miss our afternoon nothings
When we watch shows and play with things
I will miss when you nap on my lap
And still snooze when it’s not enough
I will miss taking selfies with you
Touching your hair, just staring at you
I will miss kissing you every time
Holding and hugging you anytime
I will even miss changing your nappies
To make you comfortable and happy
I will miss singing songs to you
How you laugh in little things I do
There are more things that I will miss
But please always remember this
I love you always and forever
Even if we are not together

– July 22, 2019