Is This? (Vague Questions II)

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Writer’s Note: Vague Questions I is here.

Is this my destination that will end my searching?
Or another confusion that will keep me longing?

Is this the answer to the questions I’ve been asking?
Or just a new problem that will soon be emerging?

Is this the place to rediscover passion, my drive?
Or just something I will be forced to take to survive?

Oh when will I stop asking these silly, vague questions?
Am I overanalyzing to find solutions?

Why can’t I have faith to this path that I have chosen?
How do I let all doubts and worries be forgotten?

Will I ever reach my dream from all this complaining?
When will I get tired from all this venting and whining?

– February 1, 2018

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Will You Be Mine?

You always light up my dim world
You bring warmth in this freezing cold
You’re an angel sent from above
Is this what people call “true love”?

Now, everything I can conquer
With you, I will never falter
With you, I’m at my happiest
This feeling, isn’t it the best?

This love is perfect, it’ so right
You have felt it, too, am I right?
‘Cause that is you when you’re with him
And here I am, living in a dream

For to you I am just a friend
Someone who’ll be there ’til the end
But I still wish for you to be mine
So honey, will you please be mine?

– February 22, 2018

Melancholy

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It’s sucking every inch of my strength
It’s draining every bit of my soul
I am very weak, I am weakened
I’m about to surrender my control

It is slowly eating me alive
Burying me deeper to a hole
Where I can never ever emerge
Where I will never again be whole

And I don’t have a way to resist
Let it suck me, drain me, take my all
Let it bring me to where I belong…
This melancholy has become my all

– March 21, 2018

Another Writing Struggle

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I always end up staring blankly at the ceiling
Waiting and looking for a pinch of inspiration
But no matter how hard I try it’s always nothing
I should search deeper to find that certain emotion

Words, thoughts, and ideas – they are scrambling in my head
Flipping in my bed trying to find inner calmness
Yet I still can’t figure out the things I could have said
All I have is my rambling mind with clutter and mess

And so… I just stare again blankly at the ceiling
Now just allowing the words to take me to a trip
Emptying the mind, start from the very beginning
But oh my! This is only making me fall asleep

– March 15, 2018

I Love You, Goodbye

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Writer’s Note: Of course, the title is the same as Celine Dion’s song so just want to give that song a credit.

How do I convey the things that I want to say?
What more should I do to convince you to please stay?
I wish I could wipe the tears rolling in your eyes
If only I could stop all your whimpers and cries

Is this the end of the seven years – the end of us?
Can’t we have another chance? Let’s talk, let’s discuss
Is it that easy to throw everything all away?
Please forgive me, I didn’t mean to go astray

“It was you who had thrown everything all away
You forgot about us and let lust lead your way
I can’t forget it no matter how much I try
I hate to say it – I love you but this is goodbye”

– March 28, 2018

Waiting

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My friend, you have
Been counting the clock’s minutes
Frustrated, getting restless
Patience is stretched to its limits
Uneasy, feeling reckless

Well, will you please stop worrying
Just welcome the world of waiting

It’s going to take a while
Take a deep breath, take a seat
It’s going to be a mile
Just relax, don’t sweat it

My friend, you have
Been staring at your email
Hoping you’ll see an answer
You’re setting yourself to fail
Just say a little prayer

Come on, just please stop worrying
Say hi to the world of waiting

It’s going to take a while
Take a deep breath, take a seat
It’s going to be a mile
Just relax, don’t sweat it

Oh yeah, it’s gonna be a while
So just relax, just chill, just smile
Yeah, just relax, just chill, just smile

– September 19, 2017

Today…

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Today, I realized I’d never be the same
Without you, there’d be no passion, life would be lame
But why did you even tell me to wait, to stay?
Now how am I supposed to face the coming days?

Today, I tried to accept my reality
That you and I are probably not meant to be
But at least tell me the reason, give me closure
Until when do you plan to keep this torture?

So today, I just spent all my hours sulking
I kept checking my messages but still nothing
Then wondered where would I be if you’d ever leave
Oh why did you give me hope and make me believe?

– October 23, 2017