My Agony

I live in struggle with my agony
My mind is screaming, asking for relief
Let me free, save me from my misery
Take me to a place where there is no grief

When I found hope to end my frustration
It was taken and I was left alone
With my own thoughts leading to destruction
Now I’m more trapped in this sickening zone

Now I’m defeated by my agony
I gave up, I surrendered to my mess
My mind fought but it’s my reality
To rock bottom – it’s where I will regress

– October 16, 2017

Please!

It’ playing in my head
Over and over
I’m walking in a path
Of my own destruction

I am getting insane
It’s a mental struggle
I am in agony
Suffering with no end

It’s in infinite loop
Please! Just stop already!
My mind is exploding
When will this torture end?

– October 2, 2017