Your Smile

Author’s Note: This is an excerpt from my last night’s long and vivid dream.

Today, I woke up from a dream –
Many were trapped in a huge mansion
Running from infected, looking for a way out
Then you were kidnapped.
People ran from one room to another.
People hid while figuring an escape route.
Until I finally found you
In a forest-like room, you were standing
You were full of life,
You were happy and free.
You asked, “How’s life? Any kids yet?”
I said, “None, of course but everything’s fine.’
Then I told you, “Let’s keep moving.
The infected are coming.”
“I’m tired from running, let me stay here.”
Unsure if I would agree but time is passing
I know I can’t force you to so I just said:
“Can I at least embrace you for one last time?”
As I was spreading my arms to hug you tight
You were slowly vanishing –
But the last thing that disappeared
Was the smile stuck in your lips…

Today, I woke up from a dream
Where I saw you happy and free.

It’s almost four years since you left
And I am still missing your presence
Your love and greatness I will never forget
And I will always remember that smile –
Your smile which was stuck in your lips
As I was embracing you last night.
I miss you. I love you, Mommy.

– May 27, 2016

When Can I See You Smile?

photo credit to eil.com

photo credit to eil.com

Author’s Note: The poem title and the lines are different from the song but somehow when I wrote this I can’t help but think and/or sing the song “When I See You Smile” by Bad English, hence the picture.

Sadness in your eyes I see
You seem bothered somehow
Not sure what you really feel
When can I see you smile?

Mystery – that’s what it is
Seems so obscure – an anonymity
Dark clouds surround you
Why are you so blue?

Are you in pain or may be hurting?
Are you in sorrow or may be suffering?
Every time I have a glance
Thought a smile from you is never a chance

I wonder if I can ever see you laugh
I wonder why you seem so sad
Why can’t you be happy even just for a while?
When can I see you smile?

– February 7, 2007