Holiday Blues

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photo credit to Magic4Walls.com

It’s 4PM and it’s already dark
The wind chill is piercing and I wish –
I’m at home in front of the fireplace
Enjoying its warmth and its heat
Then watch the snowfall by the window
With you by my side, admiring its beauty
Instead, here I am outside, wandering
Going nowhere, cold, lost and searching
Looking for nothing, for love, for you
Somehow, I always end up in this park
Right on this bench where we used to hang…
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It’s this time of year when pain is too much
It’s reminiscent of the past, that night –
We were at this bench, giggling nonsensically
We enjoyed the cold and nothing mattered
Then you popped the question but then…
Glimpses of lies start rushing through my mind
I wish I knew what went wrong to undo it
How can I move on and see things differently
I only wish these days, the holidays, to quickly pass
So I can stop counting each snowflake
Right on this bench where we used to hang…

– December 20, 2016

Snow / Nyebe

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Author’s Note: Since it’s been snowing, I’m posting this poem I wrote in 2013 about snow. Originally written in Filipino then I later translated it in English (in 2014) though I still prefer the Filipino version.

Snow (English Version):

Miracle of nature
This you will discover
Beauty of nature
This you will experience

Surroundings are all white
It will amaze you
It will give you awe
Even trouble will be gone

In each flake, in each fall
It will give you joy
Cotton-field surroundings
This is Christmas’ scene

Mystery of nature
This you will see
Open your heart and soul
Let it mark your memories

– February 10, 2014

Nyebe (Filipino and Original Version):

Hiwaga ng kalikasan
Ang siyang matutuklasan
Kariktan ng kalikasan
Ang siyang masasaksihan

Kapaligira’y kay puti
Tunay ngang mabibighani
Mamamangha pa parati
Sulirani’y mapapawi

Bawat butil, bawat patak
Katumbas nito ay galak
Mababalutan ng bulak
Diwang pasko ang halimuyak

Misteryo ng kalikasan
Ang siyang matatagpuan
Puso’t isipan ay buksan
Alaala ay bakasan

– December 18, 2013