It’s All Over (Part III)

Author’s Note: I wrote this when I was 16 for my first love (more of infatuation). It’s a long poem so I’ll cut this into 3 parts.

Here’s part 1 and here’s part 2.

The storm has passed and a brand new day is waiting
A wonderful rainbow I am hoping to see
And soon birds will all sing like a choir
And the grasses will be green and all with life

Roses will soon bloom and the sun won’t say bye
The trees’ leaves will soon dance with all their might
The sea and its waves will greet me and say fine
‘Cause now I can feel that things will be all right

The air will whisper all the hopes for love
The sand will again sparkle like a blazing fire
And the river will never ever stop its flow
For I will now leave thee and will start to grow

The moon will soon find its own light
The stars will twinkle and will shout at last
And the warm night will now always remind me
Finally, I have gotten over with thee…

– March 29, 2000

It’s All Over… (Part II)

Author’s Note: I wrote this when I was 16 for my first love (more of infatuation). It’s a long poem so I’ll cut this into 3 parts.

Here’s part 1 and here’s part 3.

Now birds are weeping that things won’t be all right
The bees stop in creating sounds
The grasses are drying and turning brown
‘Cause now it’s like the end of my life

Now roses are all dying and the sun is frowning
The tress are becoming gloomy; their branches are not waving
The sea is ignoring me; its waves are hurting me
They are hurting me so badly

I can’t hear the air that is whispering love
Even the sand is not sparkling now
River is filled of rocks, stopping its flow
For now I hate to see thee as a glow

The clouds are covering the moon so it doesn’t shine
The stars are mourning and saying they are sorry
The warm night is now reminding me
How can I get over with thee…

– March 29, 2000

It’s All Over… (Part I)

Author’s Note: I wrote this when I was 16 for my first love (more of infatuation). It’s a long poem so I’ll cut this into 3 parts.

Here’s part 2 and here’s part 3.

Birds sung in a wonderful hymn
The bees played with their buzzing sounds
The green grasses danced and bowed
When thee became a part of my life

Roses bloomed, the sun said hi
The trees’ leaves swayed; their branches waved
The sea greeted me; its waves touched me
They touched me so softly and gently

The air whispered things like forever
The sand sparkled like a golden fire
The river flowed like an endless ray
For I am bounded by the nature of thee

The moon smiled when I looked at it
The stars blinked and told me it’s real
The warm night reminded me
How wonderful it was to be with thee…

But the clouds became grey
Then thunders roared like a frightening mourn
The sun hid; the cloud started to cry
And the nature I saw is now a nightmare of sigh…

– March 29, 2000

Dream (Cold Dark Night)

photo obtained from: https://www.flickr.com/photos/107745485@N05/10814232105 (posted by userid nicole6hall in flickr.com

photo obtained from: https://www.flickr.com/photos/107745485@N05/10814232105 (posted by userid nicole6hall in flickr.com

Authors’ Notes:
1. I originally wrote this ages ago – during my teen years – for my crush. 😉 Teenage crush, what a nostalgic feeling!
2. I’ve been wanting to rewrite/edit my past writings so here’s what I’ve (re)written on my way to work this morning. The original is also posted here. I still want to keep the original words/phrases as much as possible to stay true to my emotions and state at the time of writing. I also want to change the title to “Cold Dark Night”, so I just put it in ().

Every time I pause and close my eyes
It’s you I see even in the dark
You’re standing there, beneath the moonlight
You’re waiting for something, may be someone
I could almost feel your heart’s beating fast
Oh, did you just feel that cool breeze blow by?
For at last I see you smiling tonight

Even if this night is cold and dark
You bring warmth and light to the spot
Then, I hear your voice, soft gentle whispers –
Whispers that are loud and clear to my heart
And now we’re getting closer and closer
I could almost touch you but suddenly you’re gone
Then it just hit me! These are not real
All these are only in my sleep…

Original:

Every time I pause and close my eyes
I always see you even in the dark
You’re standing there, waiting for someone to come
I see you underneath the moonlight,
I could almost feel your heart’s beating so fast
You could almost feel the cool breeze blowing by
At last, I see you smiling in the dark

Even if it is cold and dark,
You still brighten up the spot.
There, I hear your whispers,
Loud and clear to my heart
It seems like we are getting even closer,
But you go away and leave me behind
Cause I know, these things aren’t real,
These things are only in my sleep…

– originally written on September 21, 1998

Tonight

Author’s Note: This is another love poem written more than a decade ago when I was 17 (oh my, I feel old). When I was young, I just write without editing so this is long. Anyway, now that I rarely write about love, I hope you’ll enjoy this endangered love poem…

Tonight may be the sweetest night
As I lay awake thinking about the love that we have
All my worries are erased and fears are all burned
‘Coz this night would be the best night of my life

Tonight I dream that you’ll love me too
And to say these words that are only just for you
To be with you and to hold you near
But I guess (that) these are only just a dream

It’s so easy to say that I love you
But I couldn’t admit to myself that I do
‘Coz these pains and hurts are so excruciating
As I lay awake tonight, not knowing if you feel the same way too…

I couldn’t take the risks to say I love you
You might ignore it and your words could be denied
Afraid to be in love with you somehow
‘Coz tonight I realize that I may only mean a best friend for you

Then loving you wouldn’t be that easy
And loving you could bring all these hardships and pains
Still, this heart is searching for a love that’s so fine
Yet tonight I understand that I couldn’t sacrifice friendship
just for the sake of telling what’s true

So tonight, I decide to cover up the sorrows
And tonight I tell my heart to stop
But whatever I say and do
I can’t control my feelings, you see it’s always heart over mind…

This heart is full of pains and heartaches
Tears are still deeply falling from my eyes
As I lay awake thinking about the love that we have
This night turned out to be the loneliest night of my life…

I thought I could still hide all these heartaches and pains
I thought I could still bear all the hurts
But tell me, what must I do?
If tonight until forever on, I’m still in love with you?

And so tonight I vow never to fall in love with you
Tonight I say all my feelings are not true
But when I think about some things
I realize that I keep on falling over and over again for you…

– October 20, 2000

Why Do I Love Him?

Author’s Note: I wrote the first three stanzas of this poem almost two decades ago, 1997. I was 13-14 yrs old experiencing my first brush of romance. Two years later, my friend asked me to continue the poem and so I wrote the next stanzas when I was 16. I no longer write about love so I’m feeling nostalgic reading this. I think it’s still an enjoyable read, I want to edit it before posting but it will no longer be as authentic. I’m putting “()” for the original words that I did minor edits. Just remember, this was written by a teenager. 😉

From the first time I saw him
His tantalizing eyes were looking at me
And from that day on
My heart trembles (starts to tremble) every time I see him

I never knew that crazy feeling
Was started from there
I really can’t explain
These feelings I have

From the moment we talked
From the time I glanced at his face
I never really know
Why do I love him?

I made this poem just for him
But I don’t even know the reason for this
Maybe someday I will see
That this love is for real

Then I’ve told myself forget
But (this heart of mine) my heart can’t make the bet
Now I am (my heart) full of regrets
Still searching for the reasons why we two met?

Can’t explain these feelings
Can’t find those keys
Maybe he’s just too good to be true
But he’s the one who makes me feel blue

Maybe I love him
Maybe I like him
But you know – still searching for the answers
Why do I love him?

– written on:
First 3 stanzas: September 9, 1997
Next stanzas: November 19, 1999