Nothing To Say (Part 3)

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I’m running out of ideas
Sadly, there’s no panacea
It’s frustrating, this is so tough
All my effort is not enough

I have plenty of excuses
Instead of searching for fixes
But I cannot go on, I’m stuck
I can’t even find lady luck

I continue to squeeze my brain
But I’m only getting insane
And I still cannot find my way
That’s it, there’s nothing more to say

– December 4, 2019

Nothing To Say (Part 2)

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I have nothing to say
I can’t figure out a way
Please help me understand
How do I take command
When words are slipping away
How do I make them stay

Soon, they will disappear
What’s left is my renewed fear
Tell me this will be solved
Only a phase to evolve
But with a blurred vision
I’ll live without a mission

I am hitting a wall
Exhaustion is in control
I wish to be inspired
But the mind is blank, it’s tired
Slowly, they will be gone
Maybe this is it… I’m done!

– November 29, 2019

Nothing To Say (Part 1)

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A blurred vision
A faded passion
Lost and confused
But I refuse
To give up and quit
And face defeat

With a faint dream
An absence of gleam
Everything’s bleak
I feel so weak
And there’s no more word
Please help me, Lord

– November 27, 2019

Haunted

It’s haunting every piece of me
I ran looking for a sanctuary
I hid but it always finds me
No escape from this catastrophe

It wants to control my mind, my soul
I refused, neglecting the call
A phantom commanding my whole
I am cornered to take the fall

Then it devours me, draining my core
Resist or surrender – I am torn
But it persists, asking for more
Yet I feel at peace, I am reborn

– September 4, 2019

Writing Struggle

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I haven’t been writing lately
I can’t find the words, honestly
My mind is lost, seems uninspired
Creativity doesn’t transpire

So where do I start, be on track?
No, I cannot rely on luck
I tell myself words will soon come
But all I am is just a scum

I want to write again, seriously
I need my rhythm back, badly
Mind, please return from the abyss
Madness is here, help me end this

– December 4, 2017

All In My Head

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My head is feeling heavy
Something’s afloat
It’s drifting… they’re drifting
A sudden rush of thoughts
Are these hallucinations?
No.
Memories and flashbacks
Dreams and illusions
All together as one
Just floating… just drifting
Am I having a migraine?
No.
It’s a headache, a blood rush
Something inside is exploding
A burst of words and ideas
And my head is getting heavier
And it flows… they just flow…

– September 14, 2016

Words

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Words are floating inside my head
It’s a whirlwind yet a dead end
I cannot seem to comprehend
Been resisting to fight this dread

Words are flying round and round
Speak to me yet I hear no sound
Hoping to be lifted from the ground
Then be embraced so I can be found

Words are scattered in endless space
Gather up but they’re slipping away
Absorb me! Let me out of this gray
Then take me to that divine place

– December 1, 2015