Insatiable

An unsatisfying hunger
A thirst for blood
The sight of the first drop
Then the world just stops

I long for the meat
I lust for the flesh
It’s mind boggling
It’s uncontrollable

Eat and be filled
Drink and be pleased
Give in to the urge
Yet it’s insatiable

It wants more
It needs more
More flesh…
More blood…

Until there’s nothing left
Nothing more to bleed…

– December 11, 2017

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Thoughts These Days

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Writer’s Note: I’m posting 2 today just to tell WordPress I’m still alive! I actually want to write something about holidays or the new year but I couldn’t find the time to write about it yet so anyway, I’m posting my thoughts these past days. This is related to my struggle with changes.

To myself:
Six days without caffeine yet I’m surviving
I’m coping with the changes but I’m struggling
I feel worse each day yet I am delighted
And I never thought I would be this excited

To my spouse:
These are all new to me so please bear with me
I will be moody, I will be more whiny
But I’ll be less frustrated in each work day
With this new purpose, I’ll have no more dismay (read: work dismay, who cares about work now? ;P)

To our little one:
Just hang on tight, be well, grow strong and healthy
‘Til you’re ready for the world, see its beauty
You’re a divine gift, a wonderful blessing
For your arrival, we’ll be gladly waiting

– December 5, 2017

Struggling With Changes

Writer’s Note: I haven’t posted since last week! Not that I’m not writing, it’s because I’m struggling and overwhelmed with changes. What a timing to get a new job! if I had known I would go through these physical changes, including changes to priorities next year, I definitely would not move to a new job/company. Anyways, I’m welcoming these change despite my struggle with them. Here goes…

I used to enjoy watching people pass by
Observing them, wondering what their thoughts were
Now I feel dizzy with every move they make
This is one of the changes I’ll have to embrace

I used to like the aroma of coffee
It’s awakening, it’s stimulating
Now I feel awful with just a thought of it
It is another change that I’m struggling with

I used to work out until I lose my breath
It was to compensate for all the junk I ate
Now I have to eat right, don’t over exercise
I wonder when my routine can adjust

Changes, changes, oh why so many changes?
It’s tough but I’m looking forward to more changes
I maybe giving up some things I enjoy
But the one I’ll gain is someone who means so much more

– December 5, 2017

Patiently Waiting

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Patiently waiting for the sunrise
Without worries, without the heart’s cries
Let light shine, let it open the eyes
To believe in hope that never dies

Patiently waiting for the morning
With a smile for a new beginning
Let love be the only vital thing
To find happiness with no ending

Patiently waiting for tomorrow
With a bright future with no sorrow
Let all hate be gone, let passion grow
To live free and not go with the flow

– October 11, 2017

Relive The Past?

 

Do you want to relive the past?
The pain, the sorrow?
Go back to the memory
When all you heard was the sound –
The sound of your cries
Coming from your heart
Screaming for guidance, for help
When you resisted, struggled
Yet you were still defeated

Do you want to relive this past?
The confusion, the frustrations?
The time you hit rock bottom
But then an epiphany emerged
Which led to true passion
Where you found purpose, yourself
Then you picked up the broken pieces
Mended your wounded heart
Then approached life with new perspective

Do I want to relive my past?
To be taken back in time
And be reminded about trials –
The failures turning into triumphs
The challenges making living worthwhile
So as to harden my mind, my heart
To believe again in destiny
To again hope for darkness and light
That they will converge becoming as one…

Should I relive my past?…

– September 28, 2017

Traveling To A Blurred Destiny

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A crossroad? No! I can’t even see a road
It is being in the woods with a blind fold
I’m totally lost, wandering the unknown
Just trusting my senses to lead me to you

And I keep stumbling, falling into the pit
Picking myself up gets harder and harder
But I try to follow the sound of your voice
‎It’s my only guide in this bleak surrounding

As I open my eyes with hope to see clearly
There’s a fog, it’s enveloping the horizon
And all I can do is to pray, to listen
Then continue this journey with only faith…

I’m still stuck somewhere in the woods, in the pit
It’s unlikely I’ll figure my way out soon
But as long as I hear your voice, calling me
I know I’m in the path towards my destiny

– October 2, 2017

Please, Lord!

I did the best I could
Please don’t let me be fooled
I can only hope, pray
To let it be my way

‎Is it a new chapter?
‎A future that’s brighter?
The path to destiny
To end my agony?

But it’s reaching for star
It’s so close yet so far
My patience is tested
Now I am frustrated

So I lay it to You
Please help me to pull through
‎Please tell me how to deal
Please let it be Your will

– October 2, 2017